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I decided to go up in the mountains to get a work task done even if it has been cold and damp.. as lkng as it wasnt pouring..I could probably use the lift to get up to where I need without climbing on the slick metal roof... one less thing to try to squeeze into the 3 projected good days early next week...
So.. I drive up.. through the mist and drizzle ..into the pass ..up into the mountain town.. well I drove right out of the clouds..into the sun!
It was cool but blue skys and dry! I went up on the roof and got the job done..actually spent about a half an hour on the roof in the sun.
I posted some great pictures..and got that job done.
I did drive back down..into the mist..and rain... gloom...

The sun .. recharges you when you have been stuck in the cold damp for too long.. I would find Oregon and Washington. . A tough place to live.

I have a drive planned for tomorrow morning.. a couple hundred miles in the end.. it will be a chance to see the foliage in the mountains. . It should be ..finally..good weather for it.. maybe I can get in with a group of 20 cars and rally.. that is the plan..a couple clubs meeting up..and driving.
So...if I get up..and meet up.. it will be a good time.. I will set the car cam... get some travel video.

I have lots of video..and pictures.. someday I will edit and create slideshows to reminisce. . In the end..it will be stuff I will use to look back and see if I enjoyed any of this... outside of just working...paying bills.. creating more bills..and.. I guess..drinking beer.

That said..I am less than 3 visits to completing the milestone. .
If I continue..or not.. it is a place.. maybe one to stop.
Lately..a place to go.. beer to drink.. and prizes and gifts..
A sleep aid.. a way to forget the stresses.. and do it all again.
Over and over..time passes..and here you are.

So..
Thank you for reaching out.. I appreciate the contact.
I have a place...one I need to fill with common contact. A need to connect with someone that I can listen to..talk to.. be with.. it helps me continue.. I know it is reciprocal. . You need someone that can listen.. not judge.. and understands .. accepts .. cause I do..

What's next?
I do not know.. if I did.. it would be scary..
I have never..in all my trying to figure...each scenario.. I don't know what is next.
Being cautious..not reckless..conservative..
Weighing against wants.

But..I am overdue for change. . I have been making due.. the days pass faster than I see.. I am still working hard..but just to maintain..
No real constant happiness. Just here and now..and mostly alone and making due..settling.

I was contacted..randomly by an ex.. I waited a day to answer.. because I remember why she is an ex.. funny..she did not reply.
I think she was between boyfriends..
Not meanct to be.. I know this.. move on.

Yet.. I am here. Now.
Actually.. I just competed the last beer of the milestone I was reaching for.. exactly .

Changes are coming..

' I am not stuck here'!


R 9/30/17

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