Is it stepping or over-stepping?
I am always worried I go to far..
I have unintentionally. .
And had to have it explained to me to figure out what I said or did..
Just to find it was misinterpreted.
I wont ever win.. no chance to catch a break..
I can be me..and be the one..or I can be me..and just so wrong.
That is why at this point..I am where I am.. not where I should be.
Always too late..never when or if it should be..
That is why..I give in..and find someplace that tolerates me..
That is why I am afraid to change my situation..
I am back to the uncertainty. . The chance to make it worse..
Can I be more alone?..
I know there are no perfect situations..you must compromise to continue.. hope for the best.. or just be where you are.
Stop bitchin about it and make the best of it..
You won't fix it..because your scared of messing it up all over again..and just ending up alone.
I have had messages from my last .. I ignored them for 12 hours..and answered it generic-ly.. because..I know that place..and if I choose to step back..and settle. . I might be able to ..not be alone..but not truly happy..not where I want to be...not adequate. But enough.. totally out of my league.. but..easy..
No
I stepped away because it was not where I wanted to be..not a path I could walk comfortably down.. I would end up broke and alone..
And most likely miserable..
Yet..I am missing having a place I can go..a person that wanted me around. .
I am finding it hard to want to be home. It isn't as comfortable as it was.. it bothers me that my empty bed is not a comfort place for me..
I know moving won't fix that feeling..but getting to a place that feels more like home..
But..really. where is 'home'?
It is where the heart is.
That has new meaning.. it makes sense..
I wonder..where that is?
If you know.. tell me.
R 9/7/17
I am always worried I go to far..
I have unintentionally. .
And had to have it explained to me to figure out what I said or did..
Just to find it was misinterpreted.
I wont ever win.. no chance to catch a break..
I can be me..and be the one..or I can be me..and just so wrong.
That is why at this point..I am where I am.. not where I should be.
Always too late..never when or if it should be..
That is why..I give in..and find someplace that tolerates me..
That is why I am afraid to change my situation..
I am back to the uncertainty. . The chance to make it worse..
Can I be more alone?..
I know there are no perfect situations..you must compromise to continue.. hope for the best.. or just be where you are.
Stop bitchin about it and make the best of it..
You won't fix it..because your scared of messing it up all over again..and just ending up alone.
I have had messages from my last .. I ignored them for 12 hours..and answered it generic-ly.. because..I know that place..and if I choose to step back..and settle. . I might be able to ..not be alone..but not truly happy..not where I want to be...not adequate. But enough.. totally out of my league.. but..easy..
No
I stepped away because it was not where I wanted to be..not a path I could walk comfortably down.. I would end up broke and alone..
And most likely miserable..
Yet..I am missing having a place I can go..a person that wanted me around. .
I am finding it hard to want to be home. It isn't as comfortable as it was.. it bothers me that my empty bed is not a comfort place for me..
I know moving won't fix that feeling..but getting to a place that feels more like home..
But..really. where is 'home'?
It is where the heart is.
That has new meaning.. it makes sense..
I wonder..where that is?
If you know.. tell me.
R 9/7/17
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