I must apologize. .. or not.

I previously have posted many laments of being alone.
I know I have made this plain.
It sucks to be alone.. I have tried to stop beating this dead horse..

Yes .. I am still lonely.. I wish I could connect with my soulmate.

I feel I have missed it.. and won't catch it again.. too late and too old.

I have friends I can spend time with.. but not the one that makes me smile uncontrollably. . One that no matter what they wear. Or how they appear..are always the most beautiful girl in the room.
The one that I can turn to hear my woes..one that can tell me their woes..and I understand as much as they understand me..

I have not filled my post with this.. because I thought. .I was over doing it .
Yes..it is me .24/7..
But...because it gets old.. I needed to stop making it the main post.. what I have become. .
So .. I have not.

Yet.. I am still here.. still me...
'Not' stuck. .. here..

So.. sorry.. but I still hurt. ..
I still wish was not born so early. .
Or found so late.

Sorry.

Good night..

R. 9/26/17

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