On the engineering call today.. I learned they have not filled the postlition back east.. one I would truly be interested in.. not home..but not days away.. I applied amfew months ago.. heard nothing.. maybe..I should ask certain individuals..and see..
Another house I drive by..has sold in less than a week.. I saw the price rise 30k..and it still sold.. now is the time.
I have tasks to finish in the next 2weeks..then a driving vacation..
Then.. I need to schedule a few things and stick to it.
My personal life..is what it is.. I have contact with my local friends..but no obligations.. just me and my young adult.. the cat..
Work..and working on completing #24..
Some goal.. one I can control.
I think I have done the needed tasks to be accepted.. I have proven my integrity..and the extent of my personality.. I will continue to be me.. and I hope to be happy..
Really that is all I can hope for.. is to have a few friends that are close enough to visit when I am lonely..that are always happy to see me...as I am to see them.. not so close that I bother them..but..close enough to make them smile and be comfortable when I do visit.
But .. close enough to be there when they need me.
Nothing makes me happier than being able to help my friends survive to the next day.. if it is in my power..I will do it..
It makes me smile inside..and the light bursts out..and illuminates them. And we all smile.
That is what I need..what I ask for..to be able to do that..every day..
Be the reason someone smiles.. make someone happy..in word or deed or sheer presence.. an freely given hug ... and more..
The happy you have makes me happy.
It makes my day.. the grin is the proof..
If you need a hug..let me know.. I can do that..it is one thing i forgot for years.. and get so much satisfaction from... its unreal...
The only thing I lack..of my requirements. .is the partner to hold..all night.. the one that lets me know..I am not alone..not all by myself..
Not someone to forget..
( yes.. sometimes.. I get to know what that is.. and I realize..I was never meant to be alone..)
That is a pain..I hope no one is forced to live with..
I know it is for so many.. yet..here we are..we could help eachother with our issues. If we let them.
But we must let them.. if we know it is safe..
We by design..are not meant to be alone. .without someone ..on our level to help us survive this life we live in.. a companion.. like Adam
That is what most seek out..all their lives.. far to many fail to find the one that completes them..some give up..some are never satisfied because they never realize someone is there..
They either refuse to admit..or think they cannot admit that ..what they need is right there in their grasp..yet they let go.
Not that they are hoping something better is waiting..
It's because they are afraid. .that nothing will measure up.
Yet.. once in a while..
If you refuse to see... you will miss out.. then wonder.
Don't wonder.. see!
Another house I drive by..has sold in less than a week.. I saw the price rise 30k..and it still sold.. now is the time.
I have tasks to finish in the next 2weeks..then a driving vacation..
Then.. I need to schedule a few things and stick to it.
My personal life..is what it is.. I have contact with my local friends..but no obligations.. just me and my young adult.. the cat..
Work..and working on completing #24..
Some goal.. one I can control.
I think I have done the needed tasks to be accepted.. I have proven my integrity..and the extent of my personality.. I will continue to be me.. and I hope to be happy..
Really that is all I can hope for.. is to have a few friends that are close enough to visit when I am lonely..that are always happy to see me...as I am to see them.. not so close that I bother them..but..close enough to make them smile and be comfortable when I do visit.
But .. close enough to be there when they need me.
Nothing makes me happier than being able to help my friends survive to the next day.. if it is in my power..I will do it..
It makes me smile inside..and the light bursts out..and illuminates them. And we all smile.
That is what I need..what I ask for..to be able to do that..every day..
Be the reason someone smiles.. make someone happy..in word or deed or sheer presence.. an freely given hug ... and more..
The happy you have makes me happy.
It makes my day.. the grin is the proof..
If you need a hug..let me know.. I can do that..it is one thing i forgot for years.. and get so much satisfaction from... its unreal...
The only thing I lack..of my requirements. .is the partner to hold..all night.. the one that lets me know..I am not alone..not all by myself..
Not someone to forget..
( yes.. sometimes.. I get to know what that is.. and I realize..I was never meant to be alone..)
That is a pain..I hope no one is forced to live with..
I know it is for so many.. yet..here we are..we could help eachother with our issues. If we let them.
But we must let them.. if we know it is safe..
We by design..are not meant to be alone. .without someone ..on our level to help us survive this life we live in.. a companion.. like Adam
That is what most seek out..all their lives.. far to many fail to find the one that completes them..some give up..some are never satisfied because they never realize someone is there..
They either refuse to admit..or think they cannot admit that ..what they need is right there in their grasp..yet they let go.
Not that they are hoping something better is waiting..
It's because they are afraid. .that nothing will measure up.
Yet.. once in a while..
If you refuse to see... you will miss out.. then wonder.
Don't wonder.. see!
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