I am headed out in 5 hours.. roughly..
I had a long day. Got to sleep at 2:30a. Got called into work at 4:15a ..just to open a door and grab 4 powercords for a band to set up..I went back home..crawled back into bed and overslept.. 8:30.. worked till 5:07p.. home..did laundry..cooked dinner..replaced the screen on my phone.. packed..repacked.. went to the atm..now..having a couple beers.
Ill go home..sleep for a few..and get on a plane..
Let the weekend begin..
Yes.. Saturday I will pay my respects to my friends departure.
But I will honor his memory...
He was a good friend..and I respected him and his knowledge.
He helped me..and was a friend.
I will miss him. But primarily I am going as support to his best friend.. be needs us to help as much as we can to help him accept the passing of his friend.
I met Ron thru Rick.. and they have always been my friends.
I know Rick is taking this hard..and he needs the support of those that knew Ron to aid in his passing. I will represent for both causes.
Also..it will be nice to be back..around friends..in a famliar place..
I do miss it so.. I need to make the necessary adjustments to my situation..and...make it work in my favor..
If I am gonna be alone ..I would rather be alone near the sea.. not stuck in the mountains. ..
I sucked at all of this as a young adult..and now.. realize.. it will not change... I fall in ..and no one rescues me.. they walk away..
They stare. . And watch as I go under...and beg for a hand.. for someone to care..yet.. I can Tread water.. but end up confused..
Disoriented... lost.
Once apon a time..I found a kindred soul.. we clicked...in so many ways.. mental and physical. . Yet.. not to be.. I will never understand why.
Nope. . Never.
To diverge.. E got married!! Good for her..
Chapter closed.
A..is moving into her new home..
Little or no contact.. you would think..20 years would mean some thing..
The one that found a why ..a ghost..
R.. only a FB friend.. no more contact outside that..and none direct.
J..another Ghost.
The local J.. preoccupied..and not concerned with me..
C.. no contact.. I should visit that..
(Yes.. 3 pints in...)
I am doing a brain dump before I leave..for a vacation..
Much.. needed..time off.
This will be a cleansing. .
I hope.
I need Decyphering.. clarification.. a definition of the crap in my head..
I know I wont find it.. but I do need to find what is next.
R 7/14/17
I had a long day. Got to sleep at 2:30a. Got called into work at 4:15a ..just to open a door and grab 4 powercords for a band to set up..I went back home..crawled back into bed and overslept.. 8:30.. worked till 5:07p.. home..did laundry..cooked dinner..replaced the screen on my phone.. packed..repacked.. went to the atm..now..having a couple beers.
Ill go home..sleep for a few..and get on a plane..
Let the weekend begin..
Yes.. Saturday I will pay my respects to my friends departure.
But I will honor his memory...
He was a good friend..and I respected him and his knowledge.
He helped me..and was a friend.
I will miss him. But primarily I am going as support to his best friend.. be needs us to help as much as we can to help him accept the passing of his friend.
I met Ron thru Rick.. and they have always been my friends.
I know Rick is taking this hard..and he needs the support of those that knew Ron to aid in his passing. I will represent for both causes.
Also..it will be nice to be back..around friends..in a famliar place..
I do miss it so.. I need to make the necessary adjustments to my situation..and...make it work in my favor..
If I am gonna be alone ..I would rather be alone near the sea.. not stuck in the mountains. ..
I sucked at all of this as a young adult..and now.. realize.. it will not change... I fall in ..and no one rescues me.. they walk away..
They stare. . And watch as I go under...and beg for a hand.. for someone to care..yet.. I can Tread water.. but end up confused..
Disoriented... lost.
Once apon a time..I found a kindred soul.. we clicked...in so many ways.. mental and physical. . Yet.. not to be.. I will never understand why.
Nope. . Never.
To diverge.. E got married!! Good for her..
Chapter closed.
A..is moving into her new home..
Little or no contact.. you would think..20 years would mean some thing..
The one that found a why ..a ghost..
R.. only a FB friend.. no more contact outside that..and none direct.
J..another Ghost.
The local J.. preoccupied..and not concerned with me..
C.. no contact.. I should visit that..
(Yes.. 3 pints in...)
I am doing a brain dump before I leave..for a vacation..
Much.. needed..time off.
This will be a cleansing. .
I hope.
I need Decyphering.. clarification.. a definition of the crap in my head..
I know I wont find it.. but I do need to find what is next.
R 7/14/17
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