Seems to be the thing.
I am trying to be happy. I need more than what I have.
I dont know why I don't know why I cannot find it.
I have been trudging on as always..
I know I am stuck in this minute.. and I need to figure out what is next.. I am waiting for the time to be right..I am waiting for the options to be right..things keep happening..a bit at a time.. a bit here a bit there.. things that make me think.. sort of opportunities. .. but so far..not all in a row.. not all at the same time..
I know major things take the forefront.. big . Like house prices..
Now is the time to sell.. but..jobs.. need to work..
I am too old.. to start over.. I have experience..I can do many things..some I like..some I dont..but can..
I have 10 or 20 years left to work.. career is not really a requirement..just work.. something I can do day to day..and not want to visit the gun store...
Really am I asking so much..?? I can do any job.. and well.. I will and have done.. many jobs . I know I will work till I am done.. I will help put the nails in before they put me in the ground.
Retirement.. is not a plan. Its a dream.
So..I go back to I need to figure out a plan..and a course..and make it happen..
I can live anywhere.. do many things.
But I need some things to make it bearable..
... ok.. 4th beer truth..
I have tasted sweetness. Found a bliss.
It is just out of my reach. I have not worked out any details.
I know I feel comfortable in that place.. I am happy around the people there.. I connect.. yet... I think.. it has worn off.
I cannot prove me anymore.. I am what I am.. but..
Never enough.. so.. I try to remain..and feel..I am drifting away..
Lost again..
Too scared to just jump with out asking..
I need to find the position I need to be in..the place I need to be.
I am not satisilfied where I have ended up..is it 'ended'?..
No..just where I am now..
I wish..I could smile more.
You know..a smile with out trying.. with out thinking..
Only a few can make that happen..
Too bad they never knew.. or cared..
Well...
Miss me...
Miss you..
R8/29/17
I am trying to be happy. I need more than what I have.
I dont know why I don't know why I cannot find it.
I have been trudging on as always..
I know I am stuck in this minute.. and I need to figure out what is next.. I am waiting for the time to be right..I am waiting for the options to be right..things keep happening..a bit at a time.. a bit here a bit there.. things that make me think.. sort of opportunities. .. but so far..not all in a row.. not all at the same time..
I know major things take the forefront.. big . Like house prices..
Now is the time to sell.. but..jobs.. need to work..
I am too old.. to start over.. I have experience..I can do many things..some I like..some I dont..but can..
I have 10 or 20 years left to work.. career is not really a requirement..just work.. something I can do day to day..and not want to visit the gun store...
Really am I asking so much..?? I can do any job.. and well.. I will and have done.. many jobs . I know I will work till I am done.. I will help put the nails in before they put me in the ground.
Retirement.. is not a plan. Its a dream.
So..I go back to I need to figure out a plan..and a course..and make it happen..
I can live anywhere.. do many things.
But I need some things to make it bearable..
... ok.. 4th beer truth..
I have tasted sweetness. Found a bliss.
It is just out of my reach. I have not worked out any details.
I know I feel comfortable in that place.. I am happy around the people there.. I connect.. yet... I think.. it has worn off.
I cannot prove me anymore.. I am what I am.. but..
Never enough.. so.. I try to remain..and feel..I am drifting away..
Lost again..
Too scared to just jump with out asking..
I need to find the position I need to be in..the place I need to be.
I am not satisilfied where I have ended up..is it 'ended'?..
No..just where I am now..
I wish..I could smile more.
You know..a smile with out trying.. with out thinking..
Only a few can make that happen..
Too bad they never knew.. or cared..
Well...
Miss me...
Miss you..
R8/29/17
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