Well.. I made it back . The trip went without major issues.
The car...hiccupped a bit..but no issues. The accommodations were great for the costs. I didnt concern myself with spending..but..I didnt over do it...
It was a memory.. not one for all time..one to say 'i did it' .. I did not have to use all the scheduled days off..so I reclaimed a vacation day.. I still have a few dollars left as well.
That just means I need to plan to use more time.. make sure I use it all this year.. I should invite visitors..and show them this terrible place I have been living in for the past 14 years.. just to prove I am not insane... or I should go visit friends and family..
Maybe bring the young adult and see..maybe not... a little for me..
Undecided.. time to plan and see.. or I could just wait.. see what comes up.
I could just keep working..plenty to do..
I asked HR about the employment app..asked if it worked...I mentioned that I looked In it..and filled out the profile..submitted a resume..and applied for a job back in February.. and heard nothing.. I did hear in a conference call that the position is still open.. 6months later.... not even a note saying i was turned down.. just heard they were still trying to fill the position..
HR.. suggested to look at it together. . See if the system recognized me... of course after freaking out a bit...'are you leaving'??
I said ..no im just fishing.. I am at the top of where I can go..and no one sees that.. she said ..yes they are aware...
Sort of good news..but.. I am not sure what if anything that means..
No ..I know better than to think I am set... never.. I could be the bosses son..and I know I am never set..I need to work for every inch..
I have been proving I know my job.. over and over.. with the new owners..each department..has bosses..I have to deal with.. and prove myself to.. it seems that everytime..I have to work to prove that I have done the research..spent the time..and done my homework. .. I am not wasting my time or anyones.
But still ..6 months later.. I am still proving.. it gets annoying.
I am wondering if I should just.. give up.. start over..and get out..
I have peaked.. cannot climb any higher.. not in a way I want to..
But..I am here..and in this place where I need to prove that I do my job..as best I can..with the tools I have.. I aways respond..and do the required..yet..I have to explain..justify..and prove what I do..daily..
It sucks..
Its painful.. and annoying.
So..here I am..I went in early..on a day I should have taken as a vacation day..I accomplished what was needed..planned and unplanned.. I solved.. and planned to solve... what I can..I spent monies.. and ordered what I needed..
A few days out..causes... days of catch-up... and damage control..
But..I am used to it... and with the rest of the prerequisites. .. the things that are always required ...attention... the detail.. it is what I do..
So..the grind.. requires me to be .. me..
I find..I must remind those that know..or should know..
I am here..I will always be here.. available. . A text..or a call away..
Ok...
I must delete the last 10 minutes...
Gone...
I ask..forgiveness. ..
I should not..because..it
Is what is..but.. may never..
R
8/9/17
The car...hiccupped a bit..but no issues. The accommodations were great for the costs. I didnt concern myself with spending..but..I didnt over do it...
It was a memory.. not one for all time..one to say 'i did it' .. I did not have to use all the scheduled days off..so I reclaimed a vacation day.. I still have a few dollars left as well.
That just means I need to plan to use more time.. make sure I use it all this year.. I should invite visitors..and show them this terrible place I have been living in for the past 14 years.. just to prove I am not insane... or I should go visit friends and family..
Maybe bring the young adult and see..maybe not... a little for me..
Undecided.. time to plan and see.. or I could just wait.. see what comes up.
I could just keep working..plenty to do..
I asked HR about the employment app..asked if it worked...I mentioned that I looked In it..and filled out the profile..submitted a resume..and applied for a job back in February.. and heard nothing.. I did hear in a conference call that the position is still open.. 6months later.... not even a note saying i was turned down.. just heard they were still trying to fill the position..
HR.. suggested to look at it together. . See if the system recognized me... of course after freaking out a bit...'are you leaving'??
I said ..no im just fishing.. I am at the top of where I can go..and no one sees that.. she said ..yes they are aware...
Sort of good news..but.. I am not sure what if anything that means..
No ..I know better than to think I am set... never.. I could be the bosses son..and I know I am never set..I need to work for every inch..
I have been proving I know my job.. over and over.. with the new owners..each department..has bosses..I have to deal with.. and prove myself to.. it seems that everytime..I have to work to prove that I have done the research..spent the time..and done my homework. .. I am not wasting my time or anyones.
But still ..6 months later.. I am still proving.. it gets annoying.
I am wondering if I should just.. give up.. start over..and get out..
I have peaked.. cannot climb any higher.. not in a way I want to..
But..I am here..and in this place where I need to prove that I do my job..as best I can..with the tools I have.. I aways respond..and do the required..yet..I have to explain..justify..and prove what I do..daily..
It sucks..
Its painful.. and annoying.
So..here I am..I went in early..on a day I should have taken as a vacation day..I accomplished what was needed..planned and unplanned.. I solved.. and planned to solve... what I can..I spent monies.. and ordered what I needed..
A few days out..causes... days of catch-up... and damage control..
But..I am used to it... and with the rest of the prerequisites. .. the things that are always required ...attention... the detail.. it is what I do..
So..the grind.. requires me to be .. me..
I find..I must remind those that know..or should know..
I am here..I will always be here.. available. . A text..or a call away..
Ok...
I must delete the last 10 minutes...
Gone...
I ask..forgiveness. ..
I should not..because..it
Is what is..but.. may never..
R
8/9/17
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