Launch time..closing in

I am a few hours from a nonsense road trip.
I am just going to go..to not be here.. drag my young adult out..and try to be a part of the whole.. I took 2 extra days..for travel.. just to be able to experience summer..
I need to destress and allow a bit of summer to creep in..
I have time and a lil money.. I have to use some of this time.
I have lost so much..
I should..figure out possibilties..to slip out of this rut..this hole I have dug..
Work and responsibility. . All me..
But..I need to do things for the me everyone sees..just to not be so grumpy..
So .. I have planned this time.. I will.. and I will make the best of it.
If I could do all I want .. and be happy..and spread happy.. I would do things a bit different..
My perma-grin. .. would be known..
Yet.. here I am.. doing something that would be best shared with a lover..not my child..but.. I will make it a daddy daughter event..and hope to add it to a memory.
You only get so many..

I hope for changes that may help me.. find me..and that grin..
So..for now I will enjoy my young adults company.. and look to what is next.

Time to go home..and get ready to leave.. sleep.. and go..

Miss me..
I will be here..

R 8/3/17

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