There are a few things that I should plan.. and there are always the things that just happen.. either naturally or by outside forces..always I must adapt and make do.. or make the best of the situation. I try to make the situation work..
I have been making do for so long.. I am used to it..that is sad..because I could be so much happier.. I am not unhappy because I am real..but it is not the best it can be.. ( not perfect came to mind ) .. I don't complain..to much.. but I know..as we all .. deserve more.. I am not asking for bliss or to be rich..but I work at everything in all aspects of my existence..and find I am still struggling to smile on a daily basis.. I settle for small smiles..and hunt for true grins.. if you know ..me.. you know what the 'grin' is..
If you have seen it..or more importantly. . you have caused it.. you know me.. the me that i want to be all the time..
When I am happy..I can and do spread it.. I can make you smile..
Deny it...I dare you.
It makes me smile..you know it..
I love that.
I can settle..I can make this day the same as yesterday..and continue.. or I can find how to be truly happy..with me and my daily me. Yes ..there is a you..that makes me smile.. I am only so self contained..I do need another..to give me purpose. . Someone to make the effort rewarding.. if I can bring a smile to another..and find that causes a 'grin' ... that is what I live for..yes... the give and take.. makes me glow..
When I can have a short conversation ..and end up so happy..it means alot to me..It justifies who I am..who I want to be..it gives me a result of satisfaction..that I just cannot explain..past the smile and grin.
You have to know me..
It means so much to be so free with my expression. ...that I cannot contain it .
Those that have seen it..know.
I know..
I do not deny it..I just wish I could find the place where it is a daily reality..
Is it really that hard to find??
It seems to be.. I have been looking. .for so long..
Every time..it runs away..or plays hide and seek..
Find me.
I am here.
R 8/18/17
I have been making do for so long.. I am used to it..that is sad..because I could be so much happier.. I am not unhappy because I am real..but it is not the best it can be.. ( not perfect came to mind ) .. I don't complain..to much.. but I know..as we all .. deserve more.. I am not asking for bliss or to be rich..but I work at everything in all aspects of my existence..and find I am still struggling to smile on a daily basis.. I settle for small smiles..and hunt for true grins.. if you know ..me.. you know what the 'grin' is..
If you have seen it..or more importantly. . you have caused it.. you know me.. the me that i want to be all the time..
When I am happy..I can and do spread it.. I can make you smile..
Deny it...I dare you.
It makes me smile..you know it..
I love that.
I can settle..I can make this day the same as yesterday..and continue.. or I can find how to be truly happy..with me and my daily me. Yes ..there is a you..that makes me smile.. I am only so self contained..I do need another..to give me purpose. . Someone to make the effort rewarding.. if I can bring a smile to another..and find that causes a 'grin' ... that is what I live for..yes... the give and take.. makes me glow..
When I can have a short conversation ..and end up so happy..it means alot to me..It justifies who I am..who I want to be..it gives me a result of satisfaction..that I just cannot explain..past the smile and grin.
You have to know me..
It means so much to be so free with my expression. ...that I cannot contain it .
Those that have seen it..know.
I know..
I do not deny it..I just wish I could find the place where it is a daily reality..
Is it really that hard to find??
It seems to be.. I have been looking. .for so long..
Every time..it runs away..or plays hide and seek..
Find me.
I am here.
R 8/18/17
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