Here I am. Just me, doing what I do..
Doing my best to get the job done. More than busy.
Still a lot to do. Stressful. The pressures of completing on Time..
Making all the last minute changes a reality.
Trying not to forget anything important.
Making time to try to destress.. trying not to scare anyone away.
Trying not to be anyone but me.
Not sure if I am just happy someone wants to spend time.
It is not as bad as the settling.. so glad I didnt go there.
This was an out of the shell moment.. it worked..I met 3 friends and was welcomed. Got to find like people..we play pool and hang.
Ive found one in the group that appreciates a guy like me..but we both are guarded...I have spent time explaining me. I have not scared her away.
She asked 'what attracted you to me?'
'Why did you come over and sit with me?'
Funny thing... the bartender..a friend of mine.. saw her get up and move to a table.. she suggested I go over and talk. So..I did.
Simple as that.. I figured..no harm in that.
I didnt notice her. Her friends were a couple. .and I guess she had been stood up.. and was a 3rd wheel..the couple..newlyweds. .are all lovey-dovey..and can be a bit annoying.. so.. she moved and I went over..introduced myself and started chatting..
She remembered nothing ..other than my name..
The next time I went there.. they all were there.. the guy..invited me over ... everyone re-introduced each other.. and we all sat and talked..played some pool.. talked more..
The night ended and I saw them all again.. the next time.. they were regulars..and I had recently started going there instead of the normal place. I had seen them before.. a few times..always the 3.
The attraction..was the conversation. The attitude.. a nice person.
So all this happened 2 months ago.. I am busy with work.. and have to make time to visit. We have watched sports together. Hockey and baseball. It is a diversion from where I have been these past years...
My mental block is there..not letting me accept..
I have explained the past 2 years. . Explained my connections and permanent friendships.. all to an understanding ear.
I am not sure if its because its new.. so I am holding back..
It may be good. It may just be the thing for now.. it wont be my decision.
It is ... un...... lo..
It isn't even lo..
To quote ' just a bit of fun '
Just not putting too much into it..
To quote an old friend.. "Give it time"
Sorry I wasn't what was needed.. whatever issues..
Past, present or future.. excuses are just not enough.
Just confusion and heartache.
R 6/20/17
Doing my best to get the job done. More than busy.
Still a lot to do. Stressful. The pressures of completing on Time..
Making all the last minute changes a reality.
Trying not to forget anything important.
Making time to try to destress.. trying not to scare anyone away.
Trying not to be anyone but me.
Not sure if I am just happy someone wants to spend time.
It is not as bad as the settling.. so glad I didnt go there.
This was an out of the shell moment.. it worked..I met 3 friends and was welcomed. Got to find like people..we play pool and hang.
Ive found one in the group that appreciates a guy like me..but we both are guarded...I have spent time explaining me. I have not scared her away.
She asked 'what attracted you to me?'
'Why did you come over and sit with me?'
Funny thing... the bartender..a friend of mine.. saw her get up and move to a table.. she suggested I go over and talk. So..I did.
Simple as that.. I figured..no harm in that.
I didnt notice her. Her friends were a couple. .and I guess she had been stood up.. and was a 3rd wheel..the couple..newlyweds. .are all lovey-dovey..and can be a bit annoying.. so.. she moved and I went over..introduced myself and started chatting..
She remembered nothing ..other than my name..
The next time I went there.. they all were there.. the guy..invited me over ... everyone re-introduced each other.. and we all sat and talked..played some pool.. talked more..
The night ended and I saw them all again.. the next time.. they were regulars..and I had recently started going there instead of the normal place. I had seen them before.. a few times..always the 3.
The attraction..was the conversation. The attitude.. a nice person.
So all this happened 2 months ago.. I am busy with work.. and have to make time to visit. We have watched sports together. Hockey and baseball. It is a diversion from where I have been these past years...
My mental block is there..not letting me accept..
I have explained the past 2 years. . Explained my connections and permanent friendships.. all to an understanding ear.
I am not sure if its because its new.. so I am holding back..
It may be good. It may just be the thing for now.. it wont be my decision.
It is ... un...... lo..
It isn't even lo..
To quote ' just a bit of fun '
Just not putting too much into it..
To quote an old friend.. "Give it time"
Sorry I wasn't what was needed.. whatever issues..
Past, present or future.. excuses are just not enough.
Just confusion and heartache.
R 6/20/17
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