Here I am..

This month has been a busy one.
So much work. So little time to do the things life requires.
My cat is so mad at me.
Where have you been??
I had to spend time with him today.. I think he is better.
I .. on the other hand.. am so busy..and have to squeeze time out of the universe..to find a piece of happy.
I think it's sorta a settle.
No real attraction..just mutual appreciation for company.
Nothing hot..not a ..I got to have that... just a 'be happy someone wants you' minute..

I don't know why.. It is. What it is.. who am I to question..
As always.. the one I want.. don't want me.. the ones that want me
.are not.. hell..I was married to a lesbian for 17 yrs... I have been in worse situations..
I appreciate having someone to go .. with.. but.. not a flaming .. burning.. relationship. .
Just a right now..
Baggage is there...
I am not supposed to notice.. so I don't.
Just ignore it.. and keep on..
Or ..not...

I yearn for the connection I had..
Someone that put the 'perma-grin' back

The smile that causes the observers to see.

But.. not there.. just spending time..
Being not alone..

I have to stop..
Nite
R 6/27/17

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