Rain.

Got up and went back to sleep.
Ran a bit late.. boots on the ground and all hands on deck...
Stuff to get done..full speed. Time crunch..stress.
The temp equipment..didnt help..we already are back partially.. thanks Mike! The loaner won't enable us to do more..
I do have a free spare coming.. got to figure out how to make that work to our advantage..
Got the warranty crap figured out and the part needed is on its way!
We got the roof camera upgraded..but the rain came and had to postpone the install to tomorrow. So..I had finished all my emergency tasks..and was deciding on what to do next..
When the construction supv..came in and said he has a problem..
Too many boxes stacked outside..won't fit in the dumpster..
So I went out to cut up boxes.. and breakdown Styrofoam. .
Of course..I had some volunteers. . But it started to rain.. and I was soaked by the time I gave up.. turned 20 large tv boxes into 10..boxes full of packing foam.. I called the trash company for an additional pickup.
Then when I got back in.. dried off a little.. I decided to order the phones I have been stalling on.. ordered 2 for tomorrow delivery..
By the time 5 rolled arround... I was ready..and out.
Got home and cleaned up the kitchen. .made something to eat did the dishes.. and went to watch baseball .. now.. sitting here..drinking beer..

I have a headache. . And am not sure if I am hungry..
I need to destress and then sleep.
I feel like I need something. .like I am missing some piece..
I attempt companionship. .just to be alone.
I feel aprehensive about work..and home..
My bills are slipping again.. paid 2 a day late this month.. late fees..
Ugh..
I need to pay attention.
Don't get distracted..

I have heard nothing about the funeral..
I should ask..
I have not researched my plan for an August mini vacation.
I need to..soon.

I ask myself..over and over.. what am I doing?..why am I in this place..

I guess I am just all wet.

R. 6/8/17