No major problems. Just sucessful and busy.
My visit from my new corporate boss went better than I expected.
I got $75,000 worth of equipment from it... well my work did...
Unexpected..and moving forward with it.
It will help.
Over all, I think we came out well. He got what we do, and how we do it... we are not wasting their money.
I did get some good news from him.. I wont be firing my team in October. Which was the former companies plan.. I keep them for another year at least.
Also...my tech will be back next monday..so schedules will go back to normal.
Lots of projects to get going.. big and small. Planning to do.
I have heard nothing more from my submission. For an important position..I sort of get it.. but I was under the assumption they wanted to fill that quickly..so I was expecting some contact..
I will wait.. plenty to do till then.
Ok..
Got my time off approval..made my reservations..let people know..
Travel and transportation and a place to sleep. Check ..check..check..
Now to get ready to go.. get the car serviced so there are no issues while I am gone.. scheduled. .get licenses updated..planned..
Smooth over visitation issues.. working on it.
It is where I want to be..
I have the school get together party.. Saturday night. .I need to make time to visit certain people..the ones that want to see me.. maybe try to see some others I missed before.. also..squeeze in my brother.. and Maybe my old friend Ruben. I didn't know if there is enough time..
I am worried..that I may cause issues with mom and daughter..
Not what I want. I will make adjustments if that happens.
There is nothing owed..I do not expect special consideration...just because..
I know..for all the reasons that are obvious.. I am not a favorite with the daughter.. sorry. I also know there is not one thing I can do to change that. The last thing I want is to be a thorn between her and her mom.
I will just walk away before I become a problem to them.
They need each other.
No one..needs me.
Especially if I am 'the' problem.
Not what I want.
So any of the other grief I am hearing.. imagine.. is not helping.
I have stepped away..a lot.. more than I feel comfortable. . This place I am standing on..is a narrow ledge.. if I misstep. . I fall away.. gone. (See me again in 10 yrs.. gone)
Been done..far less pain.. yep..still pain..just less.
I heard..absense makes the heart grow fonder. .. bull.
Absence... lets people forget.. age..helps people forget the rest.
A memory. .can be fond..or hazy.
Me .. being me.. I am always the one in the haze.. easily mistaken.. usually just a memory..if at all.
Nothing special..just a guy. One that cared....was 'sweet'.. but never 'the one'.. a pit stop.. a learning experience. . Easily replaced..
Yes..fond memories to the right persons.. but ..never the one that is 'the one that got away' or the ' the major regret that I never treated well' ...oh I have heard that.. on occasion. .but from the happily married...established.. too late.. you missed it.
Not that that hurts at all.............
Now.. I am old..grey and here.
Ignored primarily..
Not making new friends...
No 'network' of opportunity..
The ones from my past..
Are intrigued..but wonder why I am here now.
What damage I have..what baggage I carry.
I ask the same.. at this age.. we all have baggage..
We deal with it as we need to.. not everyone knows how to accept it
Some of us do..we are dealing with our own demons..
We may be accepting of yours..or not..
My own..made me the guy I am.. with the resevations I have..but In the time beyond that..I have learned.. but am still me.. the me I am ..
Yet... the me that is still alone..and really hates being alone..
Time to stop..I need to think about tomorrow.
The past..good or bad..is done.
Yes..it influenced the person I am now.. better or worse..but here I am.
I need to find my happiness. .
Somewhere..
Someone.
Sometime.
Oh! Hello April Fool.. is that me??
R 4/1/17
My visit from my new corporate boss went better than I expected.
I got $75,000 worth of equipment from it... well my work did...
Unexpected..and moving forward with it.
It will help.
Over all, I think we came out well. He got what we do, and how we do it... we are not wasting their money.
I did get some good news from him.. I wont be firing my team in October. Which was the former companies plan.. I keep them for another year at least.
Also...my tech will be back next monday..so schedules will go back to normal.
Lots of projects to get going.. big and small. Planning to do.
I have heard nothing more from my submission. For an important position..I sort of get it.. but I was under the assumption they wanted to fill that quickly..so I was expecting some contact..
I will wait.. plenty to do till then.
Ok..
Got my time off approval..made my reservations..let people know..
Travel and transportation and a place to sleep. Check ..check..check..
Now to get ready to go.. get the car serviced so there are no issues while I am gone.. scheduled. .get licenses updated..planned..
Smooth over visitation issues.. working on it.
It is where I want to be..
I have the school get together party.. Saturday night. .I need to make time to visit certain people..the ones that want to see me.. maybe try to see some others I missed before.. also..squeeze in my brother.. and Maybe my old friend Ruben. I didn't know if there is enough time..
I am worried..that I may cause issues with mom and daughter..
Not what I want. I will make adjustments if that happens.
There is nothing owed..I do not expect special consideration...just because..
I know..for all the reasons that are obvious.. I am not a favorite with the daughter.. sorry. I also know there is not one thing I can do to change that. The last thing I want is to be a thorn between her and her mom.
I will just walk away before I become a problem to them.
They need each other.
No one..needs me.
Especially if I am 'the' problem.
Not what I want.
So any of the other grief I am hearing.. imagine.. is not helping.
I have stepped away..a lot.. more than I feel comfortable. . This place I am standing on..is a narrow ledge.. if I misstep. . I fall away.. gone. (See me again in 10 yrs.. gone)
Been done..far less pain.. yep..still pain..just less.
I heard..absense makes the heart grow fonder. .. bull.
Absence... lets people forget.. age..helps people forget the rest.
A memory. .can be fond..or hazy.
Me .. being me.. I am always the one in the haze.. easily mistaken.. usually just a memory..if at all.
Nothing special..just a guy. One that cared....was 'sweet'.. but never 'the one'.. a pit stop.. a learning experience. . Easily replaced..
Yes..fond memories to the right persons.. but ..never the one that is 'the one that got away' or the ' the major regret that I never treated well' ...oh I have heard that.. on occasion. .but from the happily married...established.. too late.. you missed it.
Not that that hurts at all.............
Now.. I am old..grey and here.
Ignored primarily..
Not making new friends...
No 'network' of opportunity..
The ones from my past..
Are intrigued..but wonder why I am here now.
What damage I have..what baggage I carry.
I ask the same.. at this age.. we all have baggage..
We deal with it as we need to.. not everyone knows how to accept it
Some of us do..we are dealing with our own demons..
We may be accepting of yours..or not..
My own..made me the guy I am.. with the resevations I have..but In the time beyond that..I have learned.. but am still me.. the me I am ..
Yet... the me that is still alone..and really hates being alone..
Time to stop..I need to think about tomorrow.
The past..good or bad..is done.
Yes..it influenced the person I am now.. better or worse..but here I am.
I need to find my happiness. .
Somewhere..
Someone.
Sometime.
Oh! Hello April Fool.. is that me??
R 4/1/17
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