Tasks..good..better..and mundane too.

Yes..my current existence is a series of tasks.
My recent activity is task driven.
I think I have been tasked to prove I am who I appear to be.
I will rise to that task.
Nothing I am expected to do is beyond my ability. I can own it and complete it.
The obstacles put in front of me are easily or patiently overcome.
I have to examine each situation and determine what is to be done and figure out how to accomplish it.
I am analytical if anything.
I need to step back a bit..apply my knowledge and figure out what to do.
I have survived this long..doing just that.
I have done this in all aspects of my life. It almost never fails me.
Yes..sometimes the results are different than I thought..but.. as the song says..just what I need.
I can prove myself to me. I am capable. I can do what I need to do.
I can do what is asked of me..
I have always done what is asked of me.
Sometimes against my better judgement. . But I will do what I must.
I have been denied..I have been tempted..I have looked that in the eye and just said no..
But I have been asked to do the impossible..and surprised those that doubted my ability.. because I know.. in the long of it..

I am more than worthy.

Very few can challenge that.
I have always tried to do what I must... and what I can... for everyone and for me. It usually works out in the end.
It may take some time to get there..
And sometimes.. it isn't realized until much later..
I rarely disappoint.
Except .. me..
In the end..I can say I am me. I am consistent..
But I am human.
I make mistakes. Never intentionally.
Never intentionally hurt anyone.
I may hurt me.
But never anyone but me.

But. .. I hurt me..
I wonder.. if anyone knows..??

I forget..Sometimes. ..

I feel that no one notices..
Usually in my day to day.. I feel invisible. .

I know I can make a difference..
I saw a meme. .. that stated.. I am a Introvert that sometimes acts like an extrovert..
That explains me..

I fall for those that approach me.. see that I want them to approach me.. and that I want to approach them..

If you have been fortunate to see me out of my protective shell ...where I boldly express myself.. that is who I want .. need.. to be..
I can be..if I let myself.. if you reject it.. reject me.. I wither..
I revert to the shy ..introvert.. if you have met the real me.. in any form.. you are one of the few.. I don't let anyone in.. it takes time..
If you throw that away.. you may wonder. .where I went.. cause I will fade away.

Not a task..but a bit of self preservation.

Pain is not my friend..I never invite it..but usually accept that I let it into my life. One task I hate repeating.. but I do.

R 4/17/17

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