I just said that out loud.
A fitting title.
A lot going on. And nothing.
My grade of importance has a rigid scale.
Not much makes the scale. The things that do are mind numbing.
The things I need to fix verses the things that I can fix and the things I have no power over that need to be fixed.
Very logarithmic.. no gradual less to most.. leaps and bounds between steps.
It is really kind of overwhelming.
You step back and see the enormity of it all as a whole..and cannot see how it can be done..even attempted.
But as in all things .. take one step at a time. Fix what you can, little by little. Whittle away at it. And after time you can see progress.
As you move forward..even in inches.. it adds up.
You have climbed up farther than you thought.
Now the top isn't so far. Not so daunting. Attainable.
The things that you thought prevented you from even starting are now miniscule. And past.
So with all that going on. Now.
How can I be bored and lonely?
How?
If you do it enough. Conquer the mountains put before you so often, it no longer gives you the satisfaction you had before.
It is still hard, still a challenge. But the conquest does not have such a fanfare.. you do it because you must.. you won't give up..you can't. You have lost the goal. You do out of need. Not out of want.
You are lost.
Going through the motions.
Getting to the next day.
They come faster and faster..
With out a reason.
Other than continuing to look for the next thing to fuel your steps.
You make things to motivate you. Bills. Responsibilities. Nothing that completes the holes, just new reasons not to give up.
Because you believe there is a reason out there.
A need to be filled. One you can fill.
But you are incomplete. And you know it.
So, the days pass and you keep on.
The day to day struggle is real...painful.. hopeless..or so it seems.
You have been here many times. You have found reasons to glow..to light the way..good for you and those you touch.
Light!
Bright!
You know you have touched souls of perfect people.
Helped. Made a difference. Shared your light and love.
Enlightened those in the darkest hours. They in turn have fueled your light to make it so bright, itsaved you too.
You share for the sole reason of completion.
Yours and mine.
It is not only for you. It is for me.
It gives me .. acknowledgment.. justification. . The reason I am living this life I live.
But . .. you will never know this.
R 12/20/16
A fitting title.
A lot going on. And nothing.
My grade of importance has a rigid scale.
Not much makes the scale. The things that do are mind numbing.
The things I need to fix verses the things that I can fix and the things I have no power over that need to be fixed.
Very logarithmic.. no gradual less to most.. leaps and bounds between steps.
It is really kind of overwhelming.
You step back and see the enormity of it all as a whole..and cannot see how it can be done..even attempted.
But as in all things .. take one step at a time. Fix what you can, little by little. Whittle away at it. And after time you can see progress.
As you move forward..even in inches.. it adds up.
You have climbed up farther than you thought.
Now the top isn't so far. Not so daunting. Attainable.
The things that you thought prevented you from even starting are now miniscule. And past.
So with all that going on. Now.
How can I be bored and lonely?
How?
If you do it enough. Conquer the mountains put before you so often, it no longer gives you the satisfaction you had before.
It is still hard, still a challenge. But the conquest does not have such a fanfare.. you do it because you must.. you won't give up..you can't. You have lost the goal. You do out of need. Not out of want.
You are lost.
Going through the motions.
Getting to the next day.
They come faster and faster..
With out a reason.
Other than continuing to look for the next thing to fuel your steps.
You make things to motivate you. Bills. Responsibilities. Nothing that completes the holes, just new reasons not to give up.
Because you believe there is a reason out there.
A need to be filled. One you can fill.
But you are incomplete. And you know it.
So, the days pass and you keep on.
The day to day struggle is real...painful.. hopeless..or so it seems.
You have been here many times. You have found reasons to glow..to light the way..good for you and those you touch.
Light!
Bright!
You know you have touched souls of perfect people.
Helped. Made a difference. Shared your light and love.
Enlightened those in the darkest hours. They in turn have fueled your light to make it so bright, itsaved you too.
You share for the sole reason of completion.
Yours and mine.
It is not only for you. It is for me.
It gives me .. acknowledgment.. justification. . The reason I am living this life I live.
But . .. you will never know this.
R 12/20/16
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