hot week.

I'm glad this week is nearly done..

It has been frustrating and hot.

I thought I messed up. ..

I may have ..but that's over.

N had something stolen last week ... probably.. not good.

I know she was a bit on edge after the cabin break in, and now this.. 

One expensive item taken out of her barn.. at least in the last month.. most likely the weekend after I left.

Costly and major sentimental value.

And theoretically useless to the theif or anyone they try to sell it to..

Just senseless.

Scary..and annoying.

I wish I could do anything to help.

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I thought she was mad at me, but I'm sure it was the frustration and the violation that comes with theft.

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I gave her a bit, then texted a warm message and got a good reply.

She is working all weekend and I start my on call on Monday for 2 weeks. So .. not a lot of opportunities to see each other.

Im not giving up.. this is a good thing..I refuse to mess this up.

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So, good news...

I saw that my friend that fixes vehicles had a used Mini for sale..

It has issues and is cheap, but has a good motor ... Some minor dents and such.. so I bought it .I am gonna try to get it running.. and on the road .

Of course after I buy one . another shows up.. and may need a motor .. I should buy it and transfer the motor from one to the other..and sell off the parts..maybe..

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It's a project.. either way.

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So A asked if I have time to see her..

I do..and will .

I do miss her and wish we could have made it work.. better than it is..

She still is my friend, and I do love her.. but one-sided is not ideal..but I will always dream of what we could have been. 

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We will hopefully spend some time together tomorrow.  

It would be ok if she wanted to stay the weekend..

But it's awkward to explain, since I mentioned my new girlfriend.. 

It would be ok .

 I know how she needs space from family..when she is here..I of course love the company and having something to do.

And of course my feelings have not changed.

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Work is picking up.. summer is the time to get things lined up.

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I hope I have done ..and continue to do what I must.

R