Hello??

It is that moment.. what am I doing??
Why am I doing it?
Do I have a goal? A target?
I like to think I do.. I don't prove it daily.. at least not visually noticable..if you ask..I will say.. but..I don't devulge important details while I am working on them.
Truly a work in progress..
With no drop dead dates.. it becomes a moving target.. if this goes the way I want..it will happen faster..if not.. I will work a different angle and it may takema bit longer..I have not hit that..'plan and do it now' stage..I am close..
This month..is proof..
Get it done.. then the next thing.. look for the next task..find the door.
But ..be let out , not pushed out.
Unless I am ready to walk away and start over..I need to be careful..and plan..
I am not afraid to start over..but it is much better to not have to.
It will be a bit easier..and I am hoping for easier..

I want to be happier. .I want to have time for me and mine..
I work hard..and deserve something that feels like a reward..

Plans can change.. but the master plan is still what I am aiming toward.

A happy family.. as small as it has become.. a good job with the ability to appease my requirements ..keep me busy and challenged..
Allow me to take what I have earned.. and be able to use it. Without remorse..
Be able to enjoy my life.. instead of just working..to pay bills.

I know a large task list..but I have worked hard..and will continue to work hard..but I know.. there is more to this life than work.

It should be a 'life'..

I still would love to find my 'three'..all in the same place.

Hello.. is there anyone out there??

R 10/25/17

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