Of all..
I have many hopes and dreams..
I have had many mis-takes..
I have started down long roads..hoping for a grand destination..only to find.. a dead end..I have to turn around..backtrack..and start over.
I do..I don't give up..
I haven't yet...
Some of those roads took months.. some years..some a decade or two.
But I still keep trying to find my destination.. my place..
I know I am not alone.. some of us have traveled the long road..and found detours.. or dead ends.. some I know have found forks in tbe road and realized they chose the wrong one.. and are doubling back..or slammed into a wall of realization that..even though they thought they were in the right place..they were not.
Some got stuck in the mud..and had to fight their way out..to get back on the road.. and kept going.. some turned around..
There are others..other travelers on the road.. some are nice to have along for a while..some only stay a brief time before heading off in a different direction..leaving us to continue alone.. for a time.
These roads are not always lonely..
Some times they are full of others..
Some to suggest other paths..some just to hang for a while.. and then go their own way..
Some you think are here for the long run. Yet, leave..not always on their own..not always because they want to..some just do, with no explanation..not one you understand.
I have made mistakes.. made poor judgements. . Chose the wrong companion.. thought I found the one for the long haul..just to find I was only a taxi that brings them to where they get out and dont look back as they walk away.
Such is the reality..
I am at this time. I have worked hard to get here..
But.. finding yourself blasting forward with no true dsstination..is not really going anywhere.. it appears that you are headed to something. But your not.
Fine.. we all can find some way to look busy..we work..make bills pay bills.. and work more.. no one need to know we are just going through the motions of day to day.. hoping to find meaning to our travels...
Yes.. I know it is possible to enjoy running.. and exploring..and backtracking..just to keep going.. not looking for an end..some find that challenge exciting.. no real responsibity for long..a little here and there.. and back to rolling on..
That is a rare breed..
They make good friends.. they can breathe life into a bored soul.. lessons can be learned. But that rolling stone.. will pass you buy..the first time you pause..
So here I am.. on this road.. I can see the dead end coming.. I know I will need to turn around as soon as the road is wide enough and allows it..I have seen the turn... back a way.. I should try that..
It seems familliar. . It could be interesting..
This is my brain.
This is how I decypher the scrambled thoughts.. I try to rationalize..
And understand.
Sometimes it works..sometime it confuses me more..
I am sure..you the reader experience the same..
I offer a window into me..
One I have to look into as well because sometimes I do not know the things I write.. till after I have read them.
That.. is the reality...
R 10/24/17
I have many hopes and dreams..
I have had many mis-takes..
I have started down long roads..hoping for a grand destination..only to find.. a dead end..I have to turn around..backtrack..and start over.
I do..I don't give up..
I haven't yet...
Some of those roads took months.. some years..some a decade or two.
But I still keep trying to find my destination.. my place..
I know I am not alone.. some of us have traveled the long road..and found detours.. or dead ends.. some I know have found forks in tbe road and realized they chose the wrong one.. and are doubling back..or slammed into a wall of realization that..even though they thought they were in the right place..they were not.
Some got stuck in the mud..and had to fight their way out..to get back on the road.. and kept going.. some turned around..
There are others..other travelers on the road.. some are nice to have along for a while..some only stay a brief time before heading off in a different direction..leaving us to continue alone.. for a time.
These roads are not always lonely..
Some times they are full of others..
Some to suggest other paths..some just to hang for a while.. and then go their own way..
Some you think are here for the long run. Yet, leave..not always on their own..not always because they want to..some just do, with no explanation..not one you understand.
I have made mistakes.. made poor judgements. . Chose the wrong companion.. thought I found the one for the long haul..just to find I was only a taxi that brings them to where they get out and dont look back as they walk away.
Such is the reality..
I am at this time. I have worked hard to get here..
But.. finding yourself blasting forward with no true dsstination..is not really going anywhere.. it appears that you are headed to something. But your not.
Fine.. we all can find some way to look busy..we work..make bills pay bills.. and work more.. no one need to know we are just going through the motions of day to day.. hoping to find meaning to our travels...
Yes.. I know it is possible to enjoy running.. and exploring..and backtracking..just to keep going.. not looking for an end..some find that challenge exciting.. no real responsibity for long..a little here and there.. and back to rolling on..
That is a rare breed..
They make good friends.. they can breathe life into a bored soul.. lessons can be learned. But that rolling stone.. will pass you buy..the first time you pause..
So here I am.. on this road.. I can see the dead end coming.. I know I will need to turn around as soon as the road is wide enough and allows it..I have seen the turn... back a way.. I should try that..
It seems familliar. . It could be interesting..
This is my brain.
This is how I decypher the scrambled thoughts.. I try to rationalize..
And understand.
Sometimes it works..sometime it confuses me more..
I am sure..you the reader experience the same..
I offer a window into me..
One I have to look into as well because sometimes I do not know the things I write.. till after I have read them.
That.. is the reality...
R 10/24/17
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