Please do not get me wrong...
I know I am extremely fortunate...
I have a job..a home..a child. I get up every day and do what I must to live as comfortably as I can.
I provide for my child..I eat well.
I work for all I have.
Nothing is handed to me..
I am not rich..but I am not without bills and debt.
I made them..I work to pay them..
I do not expect anyone else to pay them..
I have never had to file bankruptcy. .
But..I complain that after all these years..all the effort I have put into this life I live.. I struggle with the simple things that everyone is capable of having.
I have lost loved ones..parents.. family.. it is how life is..
Many times sad..unfortunate..and painful.
I have not lost a love.. that is one pain I do not have to carry..
I know many that have..my heart bleeds for them..
Seperation and death are things I handle differently than most people. ...I was taught many years ago about death and how to handle it.. as I have said before..my perspective is based on my beliefs and from most people is different..
So my outward reaction is not as it seems .. but I know the pain..
I have lost both my parents and many close relatives in the past few years.. I am not that young anymore..
Unfortunately at this stage..time takes more away than it gives..
I have experienced loss of close friends..and some are much younger than I.. gone too soon..gone before their time..leaving behind children..parents..wives..people that now have a hole in their life..one that can never be filled. ..or replaced..
I know most give a brave face to the world.. through each days pain..and loss.
Yes..you have to go on..there is nothing you can do to change the events..you have to see what you have..and make tomorrow better than today.
I know that you must go on..
I miss my parents..and aunts and cousins..and friends.. but..our life goes on..and so must we..
They would want us to.
They would.
We must find ourselves and live our life..each day .. to honor their memory.. they would not want us to give up.. we need to learn from the experiences we shared..and continue..
I know I am fortunate to only have lived this long with out a major tragedy in my life.. yes..the unexpected has happened to people I know and love..but not to me personally. .it does not mean I don't know that pain.
I have been close to those that have..always wishing I could ease that pain..
Yes.. I know.
Sometimes..I have to remember..through all my lonelyness..and minor grief.. it could be much worse..
So..if you are a follower of my rants..
I know I am fortunate..
But ..pain..is pain..
We all have it in varying degrees..
And right now.. the right now..is where it hurts the most.
Hugs to those that will accept them..
One thing to remember. .when you give a hug.. you get one too.
When you get a hug..you give one too.
R10/11/17
I know I am extremely fortunate...
I have a job..a home..a child. I get up every day and do what I must to live as comfortably as I can.
I provide for my child..I eat well.
I work for all I have.
Nothing is handed to me..
I am not rich..but I am not without bills and debt.
I made them..I work to pay them..
I do not expect anyone else to pay them..
I have never had to file bankruptcy. .
But..I complain that after all these years..all the effort I have put into this life I live.. I struggle with the simple things that everyone is capable of having.
I have lost loved ones..parents.. family.. it is how life is..
Many times sad..unfortunate..and painful.
I have not lost a love.. that is one pain I do not have to carry..
I know many that have..my heart bleeds for them..
Seperation and death are things I handle differently than most people. ...I was taught many years ago about death and how to handle it.. as I have said before..my perspective is based on my beliefs and from most people is different..
So my outward reaction is not as it seems .. but I know the pain..
I have lost both my parents and many close relatives in the past few years.. I am not that young anymore..
Unfortunately at this stage..time takes more away than it gives..
I have experienced loss of close friends..and some are much younger than I.. gone too soon..gone before their time..leaving behind children..parents..wives..people that now have a hole in their life..one that can never be filled. ..or replaced..
I know most give a brave face to the world.. through each days pain..and loss.
Yes..you have to go on..there is nothing you can do to change the events..you have to see what you have..and make tomorrow better than today.
I know that you must go on..
I miss my parents..and aunts and cousins..and friends.. but..our life goes on..and so must we..
They would want us to.
They would.
We must find ourselves and live our life..each day .. to honor their memory.. they would not want us to give up.. we need to learn from the experiences we shared..and continue..
I know I am fortunate to only have lived this long with out a major tragedy in my life.. yes..the unexpected has happened to people I know and love..but not to me personally. .it does not mean I don't know that pain.
I have been close to those that have..always wishing I could ease that pain..
Yes.. I know.
Sometimes..I have to remember..through all my lonelyness..and minor grief.. it could be much worse..
So..if you are a follower of my rants..
I know I am fortunate..
But ..pain..is pain..
We all have it in varying degrees..
And right now.. the right now..is where it hurts the most.
Hugs to those that will accept them..
One thing to remember. .when you give a hug.. you get one too.
When you get a hug..you give one too.
R10/11/17
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