March.
We had cold and wet and snow.
Fire and wind.
Typical winter on the front range.
I heard today..the company is looking for a chief in Hartford.
I could do Hartford.
Its a better market..which means higher pay.. of course everything is more costly.
Hmmmm
Of course there was Baton Rouge.. and Wichita Falls.. too.. not for me.
It was a paperwork and meeting day. Plus it was cool..then snow..then sun..then snow..
I must apologize for my last post.
Well maybe just explain.
Damage...
Yes ..we are all damaged in one way or another.
It was just a moment of observation. .
I am at that point..
The place where I am taking stock in what is available to me..
And of course..what isn't.
I am usually much more negative in public..where in my head.. I always entertain the variables. Mostly pipe dreams.. fantasy..
One can always hope.
Lately.. I have realized. .just who I am.. and my options have diminished..
That said.. I had little before.. now... much less.
I am finding..that what is left..is not without compromise.
I have always been open to it.. but now.. it is much more work.
Somewhere I missed out on the opportunity to find the easy way out. I must have been asleep.
I know it is there.. some have found it.. bliss.. I know it is possible.
Happiness..or at the least, a comfortable place. Somewhere you can come home and be happy to have someone there for you. Mutual appreciation for each other. The one you go to to forget the stresses of the world. They don't have to like who you have to be.. you don't have to like who they are for everyone else...you like to be with them..over everyone else. It don't have to be furious heat.. just a break from everyone else's issues. That allows passion and synchronicity. A bond that nothing out side can see. Beyond soul mate. The one that keeps you sane..in this insane world..seperate from the stress of the day to day..
If you find that.. the rest is magic.
In the truest meaning of magic..
Unexplainable. But fantastic.
I have the hope that you are out there..looking for me, cause I am looking for you..have I found you? Am I looking for a way to make you realize .. it's ME!!!
Or have I missed you?
It has happened.. more times than I can say..and probably more than that..for those times..I was just ... oblivious. .
The norm for me..totally clueless. .
Just goes back..to the one..that hit me over the head.
You.. flower girl...
No. I have no idea if you are still reading these.
I hope you are well and things are much better.
Better with out me in your world.
It has never been my plan to interfere.
You matter and deserve what you need.
No one should be able to take that from you.
Strength and hugs..and much love to you.
Here we are.
Stepping into the next month.
It has been a blur.. and here I am.
Waiting for my next decision.
Hello March 2017!
R 3/1/17
Arrrrghh!!
We had cold and wet and snow.
Fire and wind.
Typical winter on the front range.
I heard today..the company is looking for a chief in Hartford.
I could do Hartford.
Its a better market..which means higher pay.. of course everything is more costly.
Hmmmm
Of course there was Baton Rouge.. and Wichita Falls.. too.. not for me.
It was a paperwork and meeting day. Plus it was cool..then snow..then sun..then snow..
I must apologize for my last post.
Well maybe just explain.
Damage...
Yes ..we are all damaged in one way or another.
It was just a moment of observation. .
I am at that point..
The place where I am taking stock in what is available to me..
And of course..what isn't.
I am usually much more negative in public..where in my head.. I always entertain the variables. Mostly pipe dreams.. fantasy..
One can always hope.
Lately.. I have realized. .just who I am.. and my options have diminished..
That said.. I had little before.. now... much less.
I am finding..that what is left..is not without compromise.
I have always been open to it.. but now.. it is much more work.
Somewhere I missed out on the opportunity to find the easy way out. I must have been asleep.
I know it is there.. some have found it.. bliss.. I know it is possible.
Happiness..or at the least, a comfortable place. Somewhere you can come home and be happy to have someone there for you. Mutual appreciation for each other. The one you go to to forget the stresses of the world. They don't have to like who you have to be.. you don't have to like who they are for everyone else...you like to be with them..over everyone else. It don't have to be furious heat.. just a break from everyone else's issues. That allows passion and synchronicity. A bond that nothing out side can see. Beyond soul mate. The one that keeps you sane..in this insane world..seperate from the stress of the day to day..
If you find that.. the rest is magic.
In the truest meaning of magic..
Unexplainable. But fantastic.
I have the hope that you are out there..looking for me, cause I am looking for you..have I found you? Am I looking for a way to make you realize .. it's ME!!!
Or have I missed you?
It has happened.. more times than I can say..and probably more than that..for those times..I was just ... oblivious. .
The norm for me..totally clueless. .
Just goes back..to the one..that hit me over the head.
You.. flower girl...
No. I have no idea if you are still reading these.
I hope you are well and things are much better.
Better with out me in your world.
It has never been my plan to interfere.
You matter and deserve what you need.
No one should be able to take that from you.
Strength and hugs..and much love to you.
Here we are.
Stepping into the next month.
It has been a blur.. and here I am.
Waiting for my next decision.
Hello March 2017!
R 3/1/17
Arrrrghh!!
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