Getting more done..spring is here

A bit of a roller coaster at work these past weeks.
Giving considerations to a few things. Pushing back the things that got pushed back. I might have pushed it forward. might.
Went to the work website..started creating my profile.
Steps.
Got ongoing employee issues..
Really how many times do I have to tell you to be on time.
Is it that difficult, really?
Its fine that you make up the time.. stay a bit late..but the guy your relieving..is waiting..and has been charging the time..
So I end up paying you both.. not good. You have been told..time to write it up again..

I got home tonight.. finished the dishes..then since only the cat was up..I went out and raked the yard. Twigs and dead loose grass.. its supposed to rain in the next few days.. cleaned it up and bagged it.
Then went in and cooked dinner. Another spring thing done.
I should seed and water... make it look pretty.
It does look a lot better.

Got some things in the mail to work on. Started last night. Did the diagnosis. . Need some parts in one..need more investigation in the other.. then let the client know the damage. Order the parts and tune them up.

Got more cleaning..more cardboard to get rid of.

I have work projects still waffling. . One new one to start. And maybe a trip to the transmitter tomorrow.
I have a security fence to get quotes for.. one step up from the original.. key card access to the employee entrances and parking lot. Maybe get Garage quote for the expensive vehicles.
Hail protection.

I wont get the garage...unless I can find other uses for it that generate revenue.. a deck on the roof..



I just need to get determined to do the things that will make my future possible.. change is in my mind.. things that need to be planned and acted on. Made real.
Maybe I can make a smile happen..
No thing or one helping me find that smile..
The paycheck is good..but its not a consolation. . Its just helping me pay my bills..
Slowly..
I make them faster than paying them off.
I need to fix that.
I dont have any reason..

I need to put things in motion..
Thanks for the interrupting chat..
Im back.. and not as dark..
Old friends can do that.

I just need to embrace the spring fever and get things started..to get to an end. Or at least.. a new beginning..or continuance..

You know.. I realize I get these moments in my life..that wow me..and I get attached to the moment.. and find it really hard to seperate.. especially when there is nothing that compares..
You never give up the optimal when the options ..or alternatives are only settlements.. but.. you find..you are never what the optimal wants.. mostly you dont know ..they don't know..what it is they want..except..for right now..it isn't you.
Even if it is.. they refuse to admit it.. accept it..
So.. you both end up alone.
Not really anyones fault.. just bad timing.
It was right..for a moment..

This has repeated over and over in my life..
No. I am not that young any more.. and this has been going on for a long time.. you would think it would not hurt as much. But the scar tissue..does not insulate as much as you would think.
Ouch.

Well I guess that is what I get for being an introvert geek..
You are allowed to be ..almost there... but that is it.

Well I guess he happy wore off. Or the beer wore on..
Time to close out..

R 3/22/17

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