So here we are.. mid month.
Almost Everything I worked on in the last two months is starting to fall apart.
Precisely planned. Scheduled.. derailed and spinning away as if thrown off a cliff.
I spent all last month prepping to get a thing done.. just to have someone else throw a wrench into it ..then all the support and help I fought to get..evaporated. no one wants to try..or even attempt to understand. I have been trying for the last 5 years. . To get this done. I was so close.. now it looks like we won't get to finish.. again.
Ok..I can sort of accept that..but.. no one cares..no one that will benefit from me finishing this cares.
I have had to fight and be very creative to get to this point .. just for them to drop it.
I have made a few inquiries..made a few alternative suggestiions that will finish the project. But.. they are hard to convince..really hard to ask them to do their job.. because I am not allowed..
I have one hope.. just learned it today.I made two requests to see if I can get it done.. we will see if it gets started again.
On another note.. cell phones..work provided cell phones..
They want to take them away..and pay us to use ours..
Only thing.. the stipend they are providing.. is enough to pay the normal monthly bill for everyone as it is.. actually they will save more to keep it as it is. Corporate wide about 1.2m.. really..
Locally about $1000. Plus not having to pay $5000 - $10000 in termination fees and hardware purchases..maybe more.. just for our 30+ phones.. but not their policy.. 'if you use more.. expense it' and hope you get paid in time to keep from them shutting you off
And ruining your credit...
Some VP suggested what I did. .and was told nope.
So really no hope for just me..making a plea..to save money.
It just not how we are doing things.
I was told today..that my employee with the trama and needing time off.. may not get FMLA.. may not get paid..may get fired until he is ready to come back..if I havent replaced him.. hey! No pressure.. vet well and get back to work or you have no job. Because we are unable to operate witb out someone doing your job..we will need to replace you...
I thought there were laws..
Not company policy.. if you are out.and exhaust your sick and vacation time and are a non-report..your job is gone.
If that don't make him put a bullet where it don't belong..
So lots of frustrations this week. Few accomplishments.
I pulled a bad Tv off the break room wall and opened it up and fixed it by 6:00.. one victory against this day.
Small..but a victory..
It has been a week of disappointment.
Oh yes.. I also saw my class is planning another meet..
No one has asked me directly..I saw it on anothers wall.
I guess no one is thinking I would need notice to plan..and get timeoff..or they just don't care if I come.
I want to just to surprize them.
I edited my resume. I think I should submit it.. get out of here.
I asked someone if they would consider renting my house..
Or I will sell it.
I need to start cleaning..throwing away.. and fix the other car..
Make it work or sell it.
Is this the year?
I know Billings is in need of a Manager ...
I have always wanted to go to Montana..
No one comes to see me any how.. so move to nowhere..then they will have a valid excuse.
Of course there is New Haven. That would be more.. work and money..and in a much better place..
Closer to the sea. And other things..
Not that I would get it.. but it's a thought.
I should just submit the resume..and see.
They could say no.. and so could I.
Maybe an area change..climate change..would help my young adult..maybe she will decide to stay and live with her mom..or get a job and her own place.
Lots of maybe's
I truly am not helping me get anywhere. .by staying here.
Money is good..most of the time..job is ok..some place to go every day.. but I all honesty..no one to come home to.
No real reason to be in this place except it is where I am..
I could put the house up for sale..and take the cash and run. Never look back.. before I had no where to go..now I have no reason to stay..and really anywhere is Better than right here..right now.
Im bored lonely and frustrated. And it does not seem to be changing anytime soon.
I am just paying bills. Making dinner.. drinking and sleeping..then just work. 10 -13 hrs..getting paid for 8.
Changes are coming.
I just need to make a starting point.
Oh yeah.. still alone. Still lonely.
Goes with out saying..
R 3/18/17
Almost Everything I worked on in the last two months is starting to fall apart.
Precisely planned. Scheduled.. derailed and spinning away as if thrown off a cliff.
I spent all last month prepping to get a thing done.. just to have someone else throw a wrench into it ..then all the support and help I fought to get..evaporated. no one wants to try..or even attempt to understand. I have been trying for the last 5 years. . To get this done. I was so close.. now it looks like we won't get to finish.. again.
Ok..I can sort of accept that..but.. no one cares..no one that will benefit from me finishing this cares.
I have had to fight and be very creative to get to this point .. just for them to drop it.
I have made a few inquiries..made a few alternative suggestiions that will finish the project. But.. they are hard to convince..really hard to ask them to do their job.. because I am not allowed..
I have one hope.. just learned it today.I made two requests to see if I can get it done.. we will see if it gets started again.
On another note.. cell phones..work provided cell phones..
They want to take them away..and pay us to use ours..
Only thing.. the stipend they are providing.. is enough to pay the normal monthly bill for everyone as it is.. actually they will save more to keep it as it is. Corporate wide about 1.2m.. really..
Locally about $1000. Plus not having to pay $5000 - $10000 in termination fees and hardware purchases..maybe more.. just for our 30+ phones.. but not their policy.. 'if you use more.. expense it' and hope you get paid in time to keep from them shutting you off
And ruining your credit...
Some VP suggested what I did. .and was told nope.
So really no hope for just me..making a plea..to save money.
It just not how we are doing things.
I was told today..that my employee with the trama and needing time off.. may not get FMLA.. may not get paid..may get fired until he is ready to come back..if I havent replaced him.. hey! No pressure.. vet well and get back to work or you have no job. Because we are unable to operate witb out someone doing your job..we will need to replace you...
I thought there were laws..
Not company policy.. if you are out.and exhaust your sick and vacation time and are a non-report..your job is gone.
If that don't make him put a bullet where it don't belong..
So lots of frustrations this week. Few accomplishments.
I pulled a bad Tv off the break room wall and opened it up and fixed it by 6:00.. one victory against this day.
Small..but a victory..
It has been a week of disappointment.
Oh yes.. I also saw my class is planning another meet..
No one has asked me directly..I saw it on anothers wall.
I guess no one is thinking I would need notice to plan..and get timeoff..or they just don't care if I come.
I want to just to surprize them.
I edited my resume. I think I should submit it.. get out of here.
I asked someone if they would consider renting my house..
Or I will sell it.
I need to start cleaning..throwing away.. and fix the other car..
Make it work or sell it.
Is this the year?
I know Billings is in need of a Manager ...
I have always wanted to go to Montana..
No one comes to see me any how.. so move to nowhere..then they will have a valid excuse.
Of course there is New Haven. That would be more.. work and money..and in a much better place..
Closer to the sea. And other things..
Not that I would get it.. but it's a thought.
I should just submit the resume..and see.
They could say no.. and so could I.
Maybe an area change..climate change..would help my young adult..maybe she will decide to stay and live with her mom..or get a job and her own place.
Lots of maybe's
I truly am not helping me get anywhere. .by staying here.
Money is good..most of the time..job is ok..some place to go every day.. but I all honesty..no one to come home to.
No real reason to be in this place except it is where I am..
I could put the house up for sale..and take the cash and run. Never look back.. before I had no where to go..now I have no reason to stay..and really anywhere is Better than right here..right now.
Im bored lonely and frustrated. And it does not seem to be changing anytime soon.
I am just paying bills. Making dinner.. drinking and sleeping..then just work. 10 -13 hrs..getting paid for 8.
Changes are coming.
I just need to make a starting point.
Oh yeah.. still alone. Still lonely.
Goes with out saying..
R 3/18/17
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