No idea why...

My last few posts have been ... all over the spectrum. ..
Most have had chemical help.. but even the soberous post is confusing...
Yes..I read these after I post...

I am amazed..the things I post.

Bottom line..
I feel like I am alone in this world..and that no one wants me.

Period.

Not really a good feeling..

It creeps in .. now and again.
A person cannot avoid the clear signs.
It is really obvious..
Years of loneliness..
Capped by a reason to settle.. two times...

I passed on things..
No real regret.. but
Maybe..

No, I have nothing but scenarios.. of events..that would never have happened.

But ..after it all..
Look .. I am alone..
No .. not only alone..but
Lonely...

I should join a club..

Or not.. (Beatles reference.....)

Really.. is it wrong..to try to help someone..all the while...helping yourself?

It goes both ways.. you... can help you... and I can help you..and me... and.look!!! Everyone is happy!

What am I thinking!!!!!!!

No one should be happy..
No one .

:(

'Don't worry be happy'
Mmmm mmn don't worry be happy...
'Dont worry be happy'

:)

Unfortunately. .it does not address..being alone.
Feeling alone.

This reminds me..
People I know..that know.. me...
Always comment..when I have perma-smile..
Those that know me..know what that is...

What I know..
Is it is when I am sooo happy..so complete...
I cannot help but grin from ear to ear...

Really it has been noticed..a few times..

Failures all... but ..the moment..was glorious..

Like the total stranger. .in the grocery store..
How cute a couple we were...

Not to be..I didn't fit the criteria..
I didn't rate..I wasn't a golf pro..I wasn't rich..
You know.. I am exactly what you think I should be..nothing more..as long as you are smiling when you think of me.
No frowns.. no regrets...

Too many regrets.

R 10/10/16

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