Today started with an end.
I am fine with closure.
When you care..you only want the best for someone.
No agenda..no regrets.
Today was an a typical busy Monday.
Fallout to follow.
Personel issues and personal issues..
I feel I handled what I needed to...
The things I wanted to and the things I avoided..
Exist..
And will be dealt with..in their time.
I need to do many things..and I know it is a little at a time..I cannot do all at once..
Yes.. I have figured out where that coward ISTBA is hiding...
Sorry M. He can be a pain.. he has his own agenda..and you never know what that is.
For me... either give him a full on punch..or a kick in the nuts!
He deserves it..
Trust me.
..
Again ... moving on..
The things I am forced to deal with..
The rationalizations.. the excuses..
I am too old for this.
Hey!.. either you want me in your life..or you want me to make room in mine for you.. or you don't.
Stop making me guess..
I really do not have time or the energy to have to figure this out..
STOP...MAKING THIS SO HARD!!!
Figure out what you want..let me know..and lets move on!
If you haven't figured this out by now...
I will love you forever.
Really, no question about that.
If there is..you have not been paying attention.
This guy.. me.. I am really transparent.. what you see..is what you get.. you just have to look.
And really..it is not my fault that you haven't.
My best..short term girl.. saw..and when I didn't. .. made it plain.
'Ouch'
But..now..one of those friends..I will always have.. even if we can not talk..
We know.
And for the rest of you....
Yes, I do.. I will always. .
Don't ever question it.
Never.
There is none .. more
None that means more or less.
I am not easy..and neither are you..
So.. that means more than..a hierarchy. .it is life.
The life that we shared..
You made me the man I am today..
Yes..with all my issues and heart aches.
Yes..we move on..and make life choices..
But, we should never forget how we got here.
Ok..I think I am done for now.
I need sleep..
Yes .. I miss you.
Yes, I know.
No... I do wish...
So much...
Ask me.
R 10/17/16
.
I am fine with closure.
When you care..you only want the best for someone.
No agenda..no regrets.
Today was an a typical busy Monday.
Fallout to follow.
Personel issues and personal issues..
I feel I handled what I needed to...
The things I wanted to and the things I avoided..
Exist..
And will be dealt with..in their time.
I need to do many things..and I know it is a little at a time..I cannot do all at once..
Yes.. I have figured out where that coward ISTBA is hiding...
Sorry M. He can be a pain.. he has his own agenda..and you never know what that is.
For me... either give him a full on punch..or a kick in the nuts!
He deserves it..
Trust me.
..
Again ... moving on..
The things I am forced to deal with..
The rationalizations.. the excuses..
I am too old for this.
Hey!.. either you want me in your life..or you want me to make room in mine for you.. or you don't.
Stop making me guess..
I really do not have time or the energy to have to figure this out..
STOP...MAKING THIS SO HARD!!!
Figure out what you want..let me know..and lets move on!
If you haven't figured this out by now...
I will love you forever.
Really, no question about that.
If there is..you have not been paying attention.
This guy.. me.. I am really transparent.. what you see..is what you get.. you just have to look.
And really..it is not my fault that you haven't.
My best..short term girl.. saw..and when I didn't. .. made it plain.
'Ouch'
But..now..one of those friends..I will always have.. even if we can not talk..
We know.
And for the rest of you....
Yes, I do.. I will always. .
Don't ever question it.
Never.
There is none .. more
None that means more or less.
I am not easy..and neither are you..
So.. that means more than..a hierarchy. .it is life.
The life that we shared..
You made me the man I am today..
Yes..with all my issues and heart aches.
Yes..we move on..and make life choices..
But, we should never forget how we got here.
Ok..I think I am done for now.
I need sleep..
Yes .. I miss you.
Yes, I know.
No... I do wish...
So much...
Ask me.
R 10/17/16
.
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