Late... Not!!

This past week..has made me wonder about a lot..

I have been told I am .. me..

I have felt isolated. .

I have not felt needed..

I have felt replaceable.

I have felt useless.

I have felt lost.

No sense of belonging.. alone..

I have been there a lot..

I do not like it.. hate it..but not a stranger.....

I am of that age..and time sucks..and I have seen it over and over..
And as I said..just last night... "I am alone".

Hello... I am here.

Well...
I cannot explain it..and so far.. no one I know has the key..
I was better off with my last .. the one who lied to me from the start..but the lie lasted for 17 years..

I was reasonably happy..and had a reason to try to be more.. and I did....even if it wasnt ever going to make a difference..

At least I wasnt an asshole..and a cheat.. I was faithful..and did what I knew I should.. but here I am..

Just me.. alone....

R 3/8/16

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