Wednesday, March 23, 2016

I am smiling again.

Not necessarily ear to ear..but better than the past few weeks.

I noticed today..I have been negative..angry..tense..
Not sleeping well.. either waking up early..or getting a call or text to interrupt sleep..
But..nothing that makes me happy or brings a smile.. just interruptions. I have been missing the contact..and it affects my attitude..my speech..
No fault of yours..all me...

Thank you.. for defining what I realized..

I am ok..but I did grow to rely on the contact.
I felt whole..even 2200 miles away..
You helped me deal with the day to day..the bs of work and life.

I know you needed to be ... without me... my contact..
You needed prospective.. and I was only making that harder..I grew dependant..and needed you..but it was not what you needed.
Sorry.
I know..and not much I can do..

Just know.. I love you..
Always.

Good night.

R 3/23/16

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