Worked on the current repair.. and decided to go listen to some music.. I thought about calling someone to come along . ..but the decision was last minute..and I didn't want to press that decision on anyone.. so I'm out, by myself. .. just for an hour or two..
I will see if all is well when I get back.. I'm sure it will be .
So, reading the last post.. I left out a few pitstops in my history ...
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R.. she was wild.. I have no idea how we got together.. it just seemed to happen..it was a clandestine arrangement.. she was living with a guy that used to be her boyfriend..but was just taking care of her and her 2 kids..I think he was a former bouncer at a club where she used to dance .. but laid no claim to her..and she was just being wild..and going out all weekend where ever.. I think she wanted to be a biker chick.. but not that hardcore..her daughter was 13..and wilder than her.....
I think we met though my roommate..and he just handed her off to me..he was already preoccupied...
We had a few dates..where her roommate dropped her at a poolhall, and I arrived later. ..so there was no connection ...since we were all neighbors...just to keep the peace..
After a few dates..I had a conversation with her roommate..and he just wanted to make sure I wasn't promising to take her away from it all.. and that he was accepting that I was just her latest diversion.. he wanted me to know that..
She was fun, and I'm sure either found a good guy, or herself..
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Then T..or M.. depending on her first or middle name..she was another wild one.. she actually hit on me.. literally! ..I used to meet on the weekends with a few people at the local all night restaurant.. mainly for coffee and snacks..
She was one of our waitresses.. and I guess she was interested..but I wasn't noticing ..so she came up behind me and slammed both hands on my shoulders... To surprise me ..and get my attention.. it worked!
We ended up chatting till her shift ended.. and I offered to take her home.. it was a short weird situation..but I figured out that she was needing a place to live..her current place was based on her last boyfriend..that she was no longer with.. I was to be the next place..
... We ended up meaning a bit more to each other than the latest .. she moved out with friends.. a few weeks after. She explained that if she stayed any longer she would not want to leave.. and she wasn't ready for that..she was too young..she said she was afraid she would fall in love with me...
...we found each other many years later.. and communicated.. and almost rekindled..but.. she wasn't done with her current situation, and being friends was stressing the already stressed situation..
A few years after that.. she reached out.. and I told her I did not want anymore drama in my life.. and even though she was divorced and has rebuilt her life.. I had to decline.
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Then there was E...
I was in my just divorced phase..
I think we chatted one night, and I opened the conversation with, I'm just divorced and not looking to get married again...
Which was the first nail.. she had a daughter and had never been married and was looking for a husband .. we became friends.. and later more..
She said that she didn't know that I was attracted to her... But beside her dating some guy while we were together.. she realized she wanted to be with me, then when her living situation changed and she planned on moving to the east coast..so we spent her last 2 weeks together, and she left.
I did visit, but the proper situation never presented it self..so I left..and she let me leave.
She got married 2 years later...
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Other than missed chances and failures that could have been fantastic.. not much else..
A couple, three R's. .. girlfriends..I was too young for any thing serious..and in one instance..too old...I figured mom didn't approve..that her 30 yr old was dating a guy her age..
Then a few choices I made, deciding to go in one direction, leaving the other..
I think that's all.. in my adult life..
Could have been worse..could always have been different..
R
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