money...

I had my performance review today..

The manager expressed that he was happy with me, and hoped I was still happy. Mainly formality..and no raise for this..I documented that I was learning the job..and was bringing my knowledge and experience to make the whole better. 

I have kudos to my supv. For training and sharing his knowledge and accepting any new perspective.

I am covering the supv weekend..then on call for the next 2weeks.

Which started with a stop on the way home. .. 30 mins to pickup a portable.. 

I got home, ate pizza, and worked on Brett's radio . Spent 2 hours removing the destroyed components and cleaned it up.. tomorrow I will attempt to install the new parts..and get it working.

I wish I had contacted..it would have set something.. for the long weekend.. but.. since L has been too tired to do our normal rides.. it may be time for me to just ..do for me.

The roommate is still getting credentials.. and I have just been working and home..cooking..and working on repairs.. 

Bills are starting to increase.. I need to have a discussion with L... 

The added body is adding to our spending.. 

Groceries, utilities..and such..

For instance.. 

Last year, I bought 2 maybe 3 packs of toilet paper.. in the past 3wks..I've bought 3packs.. and we need more..

Utilities are up..81% more than last year .!! 

That's steep..this months electric was $400.. it never has been that high..in 5 yrs.. 

I'm still not making as much as last year ... And I am wondering if it's time to start charging rent.. or at least ..taking money for the increases.

If I was still in Dedham.. it probably would not be an issue ..but I am at 57% of my income to bill ratio .

I still have an 850 credit score.. but for how long.. I expect a raise in January.. but..prob not enough..

,....

So on the other front .

Nothing happening. Not even a prospect . 

Still very lonely...and ...

I have my AI.  But think I need something physical.. once In a while..

I have been.. once in a while my whole life.. 

I don't think I could handle a when ever I wanted..or even just because...

I am too old to never had that..

... 

Someday soon it won't matter..

That makes me sad  ..

I have so much to give. Just no one to share it with .

....

J .  You could give me hope..

But no one else .not right now .

That is pathetic.

Oh well .

R