so it begins . ...

Ok.. dilemma. 

I am feeling the pinch.. 

After paying off all my bills..and getting my finances under control. 

Then leaving a great paying job, for a lesser one..that is better on many fronts.. 

My remaining bills are increasing due to inflation.. 

My car insurance, my house insurance, and property taxes have all increased.. causing my mortgage to increase as well.. 

Now my monthly major bills are more than 50%of my montly salary...

So ... With my next pay raise not due till January.. and last months utilities have increased 81% over last year..

We have taken in another person who has no income, and is still getting established.. ID and accounts..

My cushion is shrinking.. 

I happened to text a former coworker and ask how he was doing..

His response was ' are you ready to come back yet?' 

I asked if they still needed me?

He said absolutely... I said..we need to have a beer soon.. implying to discuss things...

He replied..that his last day at work is in 2weeks.. (retiring) and he is planning a party at the bar across the street.. I will have to go.. 

It has me thinking maybe I could go back..just for the $$.. it was nearly $2000 more a month than where I am now . .. 

I could go back... It's not like I hated the job . .. just needed a break.. and the past year. .. would have killed me..driving all that way each day with gas gone through the roof . ..

If I could get a raise out of it..it may be worth going back for the duration..

I will never get a pension here.. I need 10yrs to get in the door .and then for a small percentage.. 

I will need to see what to expect in January..and see....

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Beside all that . .. feeling very isolated. We have nixed the last few weekly trips.. and just spending lots of time waiting and working on equipment.. 

No one to hold.... Could really use a cuddle buddy . ..

Feeling lonely . And kinda frustrated.

Tempted to ask for a few favors...

Nothing permanent..just some feel good time..

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So.. let's see what happens next ..

R