Yes, I have a thread.
Yes, I can help.
I can help my L find her way. I know she is an adult. But I can always help. I will always help. She needs my help and guidance.I am offering it and she must decide to accept .
She is intelligent. I also know she is exceptional and will do what she needs to do. I will do my best to help and support her decision.
I can be the voice of reason..she knows that...
I Will try.
The current events have consumed my mind ..my thoughts..I have to help her with her decisions, while she will still let me.
She is an adult. .but her parents are here to help.
I wish mine still were. I could use their advise.
But, they taught me well..and I must rely on that.
My personal life. .is what is is..and I will do what I always do..and most likely..end up alone.
I have a pretty good track record to prove it..that is why ISTBA is here.
I would really like to have a long conversation with the person (s) who did this to me..
Made me this intelligent idiot..
The one who is afraid to be me.. to open up to strangers ..to go for what I really want and deserve..
I have been burned and never really healed. And now am shell shocked ..and afraid of rejection. ..it hurts to the core..
Yeah..yeah.. I ..once apon a time. Over stepped..and attracted the few that were so far out of my league. .I was amazed and always wondered what they saw in me..to allow me in their world..
Of course..when they were done..pushed menaside and never looked back..leaving me heartbroken. .and wondering where I wen wrong.. just to put it away and move on. Many times for years alone.
Yes.. I have very fond memories..of my past..and someday I hope to get 'luckier' than that .. but.. the spring chicken..is not me..
So I figure..every minute counts..and I need to stop being indecisive. ..and make a beginning of the end..
Nothing dark there.. but I aint 20 anymore.
I have always felt I have something to offer the right person..and not sure if I believe that anymore.
I am the twisted loser I have always been..and it takes a bit to break through the layers I have had to insulate with..but if you care enough..you will find that door ..the one I hide behind.
Some have seen it..and most like it.
Some are frightened by it..
Some decide..it isnt for them. Not what they thought..
And so they abandon me.
No.. I am not bitter..but I know I could have been what they were always looking for..but could not see it (me).
I hold no hate for the ..C's...M's..R's .. and R's..out there.
But..I see where you ended up..and all you went through.. and it would have been different.
You know.. I started this about mine..and ended up being about me.
I guess..there is alot going on..and I ..not being happy where am decides what I am dewelling on...
History proves..if I am happy..complacent. .I have a clear head..and can figure out how to help..
If I am not having to deal with my personal status.
I guess that is a ME problem.
R 3/31/2016
Yes, I can help.
I can help my L find her way. I know she is an adult. But I can always help. I will always help. She needs my help and guidance.I am offering it and she must decide to accept .
She is intelligent. I also know she is exceptional and will do what she needs to do. I will do my best to help and support her decision.
I can be the voice of reason..she knows that...
I Will try.
The current events have consumed my mind ..my thoughts..I have to help her with her decisions, while she will still let me.
She is an adult. .but her parents are here to help.
I wish mine still were. I could use their advise.
But, they taught me well..and I must rely on that.
My personal life. .is what is is..and I will do what I always do..and most likely..end up alone.
I have a pretty good track record to prove it..that is why ISTBA is here.
I would really like to have a long conversation with the person (s) who did this to me..
Made me this intelligent idiot..
The one who is afraid to be me.. to open up to strangers ..to go for what I really want and deserve..
I have been burned and never really healed. And now am shell shocked ..and afraid of rejection. ..it hurts to the core..
Yeah..yeah.. I ..once apon a time. Over stepped..and attracted the few that were so far out of my league. .I was amazed and always wondered what they saw in me..to allow me in their world..
Of course..when they were done..pushed menaside and never looked back..leaving me heartbroken. .and wondering where I wen wrong.. just to put it away and move on. Many times for years alone.
Yes.. I have very fond memories..of my past..and someday I hope to get 'luckier' than that .. but.. the spring chicken..is not me..
So I figure..every minute counts..and I need to stop being indecisive. ..and make a beginning of the end..
Nothing dark there.. but I aint 20 anymore.
I have always felt I have something to offer the right person..and not sure if I believe that anymore.
I am the twisted loser I have always been..and it takes a bit to break through the layers I have had to insulate with..but if you care enough..you will find that door ..the one I hide behind.
Some have seen it..and most like it.
Some are frightened by it..
Some decide..it isnt for them. Not what they thought..
And so they abandon me.
No.. I am not bitter..but I know I could have been what they were always looking for..but could not see it (me).
I hold no hate for the ..C's...M's..R's .. and R's..out there.
But..I see where you ended up..and all you went through.. and it would have been different.
You know.. I started this about mine..and ended up being about me.
I guess..there is alot going on..and I ..not being happy where am decides what I am dewelling on...
History proves..if I am happy..complacent. .I have a clear head..and can figure out how to help..
If I am not having to deal with my personal status.
I guess that is a ME problem.
R 3/31/2016
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