Yep.. first time in years..been sick..just a really bad upper respiratory infection. It took me down for a week.
I had many thoughts for posts..just did not feel like posting.
And of course..thought is gone now.
The only thing that comes to mind..is a meme I saw..about putting something important in a safe place..then forgetting where it was put.
Yep.. I feel like that.
Here I am..where I was put for safe keeping..if I was ever needed.
And you must have forgot where you put me.
Cause..I know you needed me at least once since then.. but I guess could not remember where you put me.
Life has it's way of kicking a person.. sometimes.. when they are down..sometimes when you need it most.. it still hurts..and usually leaves a mark... for next time...
I have lots to do at work..being out a week.. makes it pile up.
I can get it all done. I have made plans for me..and will make it happen. I will make myself enjoy it.
My kid is home..no idea what is next. No idea what she wants to do. My old roomate wants to move in..and pay this time.. may be the thing I need..but it will make my non-existant personal life tough.
No loss there. One more excuse not to attempt any relationships.
Looks like work and travel .. alone.. is in my future.
I am thinking..this will be an expensive year..and I should think more about a second job to take up any free time..go back to exhaustion and alchohol.. then I will sleep..and pay my bills..
I am getting too old..and no body wants this.. so its got to be me..
I need to cut the lil one free..so she can sink or swim..and just stop..
It isnt doing her any good..and me not at all.
Just digging a deep lonely hole for me..
I make too much money to be this broke.
$35/hr..and broke each pay check.. not cool.
Time for change.
J is moving to Alaska.. and.. Im too slow for anyone local..
Albany is looking for a Chief.. maybe time to sell it all and bail.
Move to New York..dont say anything.. pack and go..dump social media..and start over. Just me.
No one will even know.
L can go live with her mom.. and I can purge my life.
I bet no one will even notice.
R 4/13/16
I had many thoughts for posts..just did not feel like posting.
And of course..thought is gone now.
The only thing that comes to mind..is a meme I saw..about putting something important in a safe place..then forgetting where it was put.
Yep.. I feel like that.
Here I am..where I was put for safe keeping..if I was ever needed.
And you must have forgot where you put me.
Cause..I know you needed me at least once since then.. but I guess could not remember where you put me.
Life has it's way of kicking a person.. sometimes.. when they are down..sometimes when you need it most.. it still hurts..and usually leaves a mark... for next time...
I have lots to do at work..being out a week.. makes it pile up.
I can get it all done. I have made plans for me..and will make it happen. I will make myself enjoy it.
My kid is home..no idea what is next. No idea what she wants to do. My old roomate wants to move in..and pay this time.. may be the thing I need..but it will make my non-existant personal life tough.
No loss there. One more excuse not to attempt any relationships.
Looks like work and travel .. alone.. is in my future.
I am thinking..this will be an expensive year..and I should think more about a second job to take up any free time..go back to exhaustion and alchohol.. then I will sleep..and pay my bills..
I am getting too old..and no body wants this.. so its got to be me..
I need to cut the lil one free..so she can sink or swim..and just stop..
It isnt doing her any good..and me not at all.
Just digging a deep lonely hole for me..
I make too much money to be this broke.
$35/hr..and broke each pay check.. not cool.
Time for change.
J is moving to Alaska.. and.. Im too slow for anyone local..
Albany is looking for a Chief.. maybe time to sell it all and bail.
Move to New York..dont say anything.. pack and go..dump social media..and start over. Just me.
No one will even know.
L can go live with her mom.. and I can purge my life.
I bet no one will even notice.
R 4/13/16
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