It was..
But nice to text for a bit..
Some contact ..and it lasted longer than I expected.
C started with a dilemma..rather a request for opinion..
I supplied my two cents..
Finished cooking.. ate and texted some more.
Just day to day..blah blah.. but I appreciated the fact that she reached out to me.
M too.. I always love contact.. but.. have to behave and keep distant.. not like 2000 mi isnt enough.
One of the reasons im not planning a trip to CC.. I dont want to be awkward or a burden or even a reason for an excuse to be made..
Terrible way to think.. but I dont want to be the source of any pressure.
So.. I plan my coast to coast..and omit CC.
I actually looked for contacts at WPRI.. to see if there was a need.
And option..cause I know I could..
It would be better than sitting here..
I could ..
Easily..
No
Not now
Plans
And with the new guys taking over in 6 mo..options open...
I think..I have done all I can for my girl..and it is time her other parent start working to get her going.. I am no longer more than support. She is floundering and needs to start moving.. and I am not doing enough as a motivator.. hell..by this time in her life I was working 4 yrs..married and divorced..had credit and my own place ..
I know its a different age..but.. sleeping all day and staying up all night and not giving much thought about life.. is not where she should be..and im not enough of a motivator right now..
And not having much of a life of my own...isnt helping.
Maybe I should run away with Jenn to Alaska.. she would like that..
Rent my house to Anita.. and leave it all behind.. dont look back.
I need to figure me out.
Stop chasing the impossible..and settle.
Im not 25 anymore. . And this is what I have..
No youngin. Is gonna give me the time of day anymore.. maybe I should stop chasing the 40 yr olds..and start looking to the 50 yr olds.. and just give up.
R 4/19/16
But nice to text for a bit..
Some contact ..and it lasted longer than I expected.
C started with a dilemma..rather a request for opinion..
I supplied my two cents..
Finished cooking.. ate and texted some more.
Just day to day..blah blah.. but I appreciated the fact that she reached out to me.
M too.. I always love contact.. but.. have to behave and keep distant.. not like 2000 mi isnt enough.
One of the reasons im not planning a trip to CC.. I dont want to be awkward or a burden or even a reason for an excuse to be made..
Terrible way to think.. but I dont want to be the source of any pressure.
So.. I plan my coast to coast..and omit CC.
I actually looked for contacts at WPRI.. to see if there was a need.
And option..cause I know I could..
It would be better than sitting here..
I could ..
Easily..
No
Not now
Plans
And with the new guys taking over in 6 mo..options open...
I think..I have done all I can for my girl..and it is time her other parent start working to get her going.. I am no longer more than support. She is floundering and needs to start moving.. and I am not doing enough as a motivator.. hell..by this time in her life I was working 4 yrs..married and divorced..had credit and my own place ..
I know its a different age..but.. sleeping all day and staying up all night and not giving much thought about life.. is not where she should be..and im not enough of a motivator right now..
And not having much of a life of my own...isnt helping.
Maybe I should run away with Jenn to Alaska.. she would like that..
Rent my house to Anita.. and leave it all behind.. dont look back.
I need to figure me out.
Stop chasing the impossible..and settle.
Im not 25 anymore. . And this is what I have..
No youngin. Is gonna give me the time of day anymore.. maybe I should stop chasing the 40 yr olds..and start looking to the 50 yr olds.. and just give up.
R 4/19/16
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