Recovered lost posting.. partial..

I found this stuck in my phone from last week.. it doesnt matter because it has all been discussed. .and I know where I am.
I know where I should have stayed..
I just hope I didnt screw it all up.

I am doing what I know I should.. and it is not easy.
Anyway.. here it is.. it probably should have been deleted... but I found it and have to post it.

I need to beware of capital letters.. they haunt me.

2/13/16

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Started.. but not completed thoughts...
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I am rethinking my directions.
I have to try and figure out what I want. Why I let this get away from me.
I knew going in that this was different and going to be a long and interesting ride.
I started this with no expectations. .no agenda..only to be there..and a friend. It grew into a fantastic friendship and will always be one.

ISTBA.. has taken a sabbatical and moved to tibet or somewhere...
Thanks..

But as always.. I grew so attached and dependant..
I enjoy the close friendship..

But ... find myself jealous (totally the wrong word) of the rest of the available contact.
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Sorry I scared you.

Resetting.

You are right.. I didnt mean to push anything..
Actually I did..but know its not time.

I am getting nervous... others are realizing who you are..what a beautiful person you are.. you are coming out of your shell.. and I am afraid of losing you.

I am no longer your only smile in your day.. and have lost my exclusivity..plus..I feel im slipping ..

Its inevitable.. there are others waiting to find you.. and the issues are so obvious.. I will lose.. that whole time /distance thing..

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