Posting

Ok.. I feel a post is needed..

First of all...

I LOVE YOU!

Never gonna change.
It is a fact.

That is out of the way..

We talk..and explain ourselves..
I try to articulate and listen...and understand.

I know...some of what you are going through.. I have been tring to help..

I know you understand where my head is..
I have fallen.. but I see you are afraid of heights..
So, I understand..why.. but..I dont get why you wont allow me to let us have fun.
I am not going to hold you for more than our time we can spend together..
You should know I am not like most people you know..
We have connected on many levels..and we enjoy our time together..you allow me to be romantic.
I love to be able to share that side of me..
I know where you are..and I respect that..but
I dont see why you decline to come have some fun..
Is a weekend that dangerous.. I am not afraid of getting more attached.. but I think you are.. we have fun.. and we love eachother... so it isnt weird..
I love to put a smile on your face..
I know I can do that.
Mentally and physically..
It puzzles me as why you wont let me help you to be happy.
I know this isnt a permanent thing, too early for that ..
I just love making you smile and helping you be happy.

So..my point is why cant you come out and have a lil fun..and we can share some more time together.. some pleasant memories ..
Beautiful scenery..and a chance to get out of your 'location' away from all that is haunting you for a few days..

I am not looking to make you change or decide your future based on our shared time .. I care so much for you..I do not want you to feel obligated to me for our time spent together.
It is nice to be with someone I care for..it is easier to enjoy what I feel with the right person.. I wont make you feel obligated to be with me just cause we have shared ourselves.

I know I can show you a good time..make some memories even if it is forgotten in a weekend.

I must apologize for the rant.. I want to make sure you wont forget me.
Dont say you wont... it can happen.
... it hss happenef to me before. ..
I just need you in my life.
And I will take whatever it ends up as.
Friend.. lover.. fantasy..
But please dont make me..be without you....

Ok..I must stop... 4 pints later..and I am professing ... me.

But ..if you are scared to come spend time with me..someone who can bring out the smile that lives in you.. you will have to make me understand.. just why..

I am already hooked on you..and am willing to let you go if you are going to be happy..

As I said many times
I am here to help you be happy.
It is my goal.
It does not necessarily include me..

Ok.. done for now...

Love you..

( I have to read this later..to know what came out of my head)

R 02/09/2016
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