Vacation..so needed.

Oh yes. I need one. I have earned it. Hopefully the boss will approve it. I picked the same time he is going to be out..
I decided on a road trip for me and L.
I will pace the drive through the week..
I have turned 7day vacation into almost 2weeks with holidays and weekends. It will be a great stress reliever.
I will be among friends and family.
Home.

I decided to just do it. The hell with the cost.. Sanity is worth more than that. The constant stresses are really weighing on me.. The deal I made to rescue my assistant.. Cost me some of my mental state.. I relied on a friend that wanted more of me.. And it was just not meant to be.
I severed that tonight. No misinterpretations.. I am .
   I have no one local.. But.. End of the year.. Time for changes.

I looked at postings. Outside of the conglomeration.. There are more than a few that would fit.. Where I want to be. .. Or close ..

I have had so many kicks in the head this past month.. Wake up moments..
Realizations.. Thing's are falling in place..
I just need to apply it and act.

I know several of my predecessors have struggled with the job stresses.. A Couple have failed.  If it wasn't for my friends that help me.. Ground me..keep me happy.. I would not be able to endure.
Thank you.

Sometimes the help comes from unknown sources that become true friends. Closer than friends..
I consider myself lucky to know someone like that.

I do not expect anything.. Nothing is determined.
We are just seeing what will happen.. Or not..
I just want someone that appreciates a hug.. Someone that can tolerate my ...me. Really who I am.
I don't usually share .. Me.. With everyone..
If I have.. You are one of the few.

I am hoping to get many hours of bonding time with L. And distress at the same time. Then.. I get to visit with friends and family..

A real vacation.. Time off. Change of latitude.
And be near the sea..

Winter..but not here.

See you soon..

R 12/14/17