Tough week.. Almost done

It was a long day.. 12 hours..no lunch break.. Outside as well in the cold.
..for a few hours...but we got the gate done.
I processed many invoices.. And have several tasks for  tomorrow.
I had a long conversation with the local business admin.. Things are a bit messed up in that area.. Hopefully not more trouble on the horizon.

I still need to figure out how to wash the cat.. He is in serious need ..
I am planning on calling a groomer..and paying to have him a spa day.
I think that is the only way.
I have to do that this weekend.

I have to plan my trip.. Add a couple stops.. Book a room or two.

I need to rewrite my resume.

I was given a few bits of station swag.. That will be perfect for my vacation.
I have not purchased anything for L.. Other than a new laptop.. I don't know what she wants or needs.. I think she is..accepting the trip as part of the Holiday..
I hope she will enjoy it.
She never complains she is such a good kid.

Me.. I am excited to get away.
I want to enjoy the drive.. I will do 10 hours the first day.. Get up earlyish and drive another 10..or so. That will put us close.. In time to arrive either Friday eve or Saturday.. I have to map it and book rooms..
Once we arrive.. I have to. Contact family..and set up visits.
Some have never met L..some have not seen her in many years. so it will be fun.

I will be happy to cash in a few needed hugs.
I should also do some networking..maybe place a few resumes..

Planning.. I usually don't plan too much..just go and enjoy having little or no structure..be flexible.  It may end up that way.  But none the less.. It is what I need. For me.

I miss my friends so much.. The time zones have fought against me more so this year.. To be able to be close.. In person.. It will be good.

I am drifting.. Still.. No anchor.. No destination. A sight..glimmer on the horizon.. A target.. But with no means of propulsion.. No wind for my sail..
I hope to figure out what to do in 2018. Wants .. Wishes.. Needs.. Obligations..
I am no longer a kid... I do not get to have the exception of being new..
I should know what to do.. Where to be.. How to get there..
It isn't a taught thing..but an experienced thing.. With out experiencing it you just don't know.. The reality of it.
We figure this out too late in life.. The previous generations..either keep it a secret. Or don't think it needs to be explained..or maybe just don't know it happens..  Yet..here we are..no longer young and carefree..just old and careless.. Or care less.. For some.
The rest of us.. Struggle and lament..
Some get rude awakenings..some get thrust into a situation that never should be.. Survive and harden..or melt..  Some renew..become more aware than before... Learn how to be themselves.. Not without recognizing their flaws... Some more critical than they should be.. And need reminders..to not be that way. Reminders that the struggle is real..and recognized.. Appreciated .. If you...in your vulnerable.. Weak state.. Step up..not wilt..rise to the challenge.. Shine.. Yet weep.. Not  a Stone but a willow.. Bends but don't  break.. Strong but flexible.. Comforting yet wise..
Yes.. A willow.

Nature has lessons for us..if we look.

So.. On that..
I will close..

Hugs to those that deserve them..need them.. Want them..
And..everyone else.

R 12/15/17