It is not that day yet. It wont be a bird. Just a ham. Maybe a drive if everyone is awake and I get dinner finished in time.
The car is not happy..needs some minor work. I have ordered the parts and will be In tuesday. Still driveable.
Work stress has been up. I was assigned one new..got to get done right away task.. we have a companywide software install to complete.. we have the gates to finish programming. And gates parts to install and wire next week. Then that project should be done. I have an HVAC unit that is delayed till Monday.. it is ordered and I have contracted the install...another that needs to be done by the end of the year. There are a couple computers I need to build and install.. this week.. I have a audio player to check out and install... work..work.. work.. some stress. It seems to be heavier than the norm.. I have not been comfortable..not sleeping comfortably.. I have been getting to work early..and still staying late.. not really thinking too much about it.
I have reviewed my finances..and need to just keep on..
No extra monies..not coming my way..still have to pay the bills.. I have more than I should.. my own fault..
I remember last November. .being in the same spot.. bad planning..short.. my solution last year did not work.. so. I will ride it out. Try something different. It has been like this since I stopped working the 2nd job.. I will devise a new plan.
It could be worse.. it could be better..
I can make choices to make this easier..
What. When.. I don't know.. I am still scared to take the steps.. I don't know..I need to ..there are a few things I must do..things I want to do..places to go.
I have missed out on so much.. these past 20 yrs..
Not that any radical change will make much difference. . It will hopefully be better. A few close friends..some that can tolerate the me.. some that may actually be happy to have me near.
At this point.. I would work a crappy job..if it allowed me to be near someone I could actually call my friend. Someone that wanted me around.. some place where my presence made a difference.
No.. just feeling old. .and wondering why I am still here in this place.
Oh ... I could go on and on about loves I miss and people I miss being able to see..
But.. here I am.. I am the one that can change that..
I have before..the last time.. it was tough.. but.. I can do it again. .
I have to finish timing.it.
Work out the details.. I have options..but it depends on timing.. planning.. and karma..or luck.
Wish me...
R 11/22/17
The car is not happy..needs some minor work. I have ordered the parts and will be In tuesday. Still driveable.
Work stress has been up. I was assigned one new..got to get done right away task.. we have a companywide software install to complete.. we have the gates to finish programming. And gates parts to install and wire next week. Then that project should be done. I have an HVAC unit that is delayed till Monday.. it is ordered and I have contracted the install...another that needs to be done by the end of the year. There are a couple computers I need to build and install.. this week.. I have a audio player to check out and install... work..work.. work.. some stress. It seems to be heavier than the norm.. I have not been comfortable..not sleeping comfortably.. I have been getting to work early..and still staying late.. not really thinking too much about it.
I have reviewed my finances..and need to just keep on..
No extra monies..not coming my way..still have to pay the bills.. I have more than I should.. my own fault..
I remember last November. .being in the same spot.. bad planning..short.. my solution last year did not work.. so. I will ride it out. Try something different. It has been like this since I stopped working the 2nd job.. I will devise a new plan.
It could be worse.. it could be better..
I can make choices to make this easier..
What. When.. I don't know.. I am still scared to take the steps.. I don't know..I need to ..there are a few things I must do..things I want to do..places to go.
I have missed out on so much.. these past 20 yrs..
Not that any radical change will make much difference. . It will hopefully be better. A few close friends..some that can tolerate the me.. some that may actually be happy to have me near.
At this point.. I would work a crappy job..if it allowed me to be near someone I could actually call my friend. Someone that wanted me around.. some place where my presence made a difference.
No.. just feeling old. .and wondering why I am still here in this place.
Oh ... I could go on and on about loves I miss and people I miss being able to see..
But.. here I am.. I am the one that can change that..
I have before..the last time.. it was tough.. but.. I can do it again. .
I have to finish timing.it.
Work out the details.. I have options..but it depends on timing.. planning.. and karma..or luck.
Wish me...
R 11/22/17
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