ok..Im ok..really..

I think..

Really my opinion is all that matters..

When it comes to me.

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No one is interested in what I think my state is.  I am not dangerous..not worried. I do what I must, and keep going. I really have no idea where I am headed, but I will get there eventually.

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I know I need to plan more. I have been trying..looking forward, I know I will need to save more in the next few years.. I have made life changes to get closer to a position.. it really is all on my shoulders..it always has been. Now I am paying a little more attention. I dont think I have made any changes that help too much.  I did look at my future money and realized where I was did not provide..so I changed jobs.. it is a tough situation..but.. im able to do it..and if it holds out.. I can continue to build the retirement money..

And someday retire.

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I need to start a plan to salt away cash..in addition.. start putting it into my savings or buy a certificate.. it may be something to figure out.

No one will help me ..I must help my self.

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I had planned to share this with someone in this time of my life. 

..but just me.

Maybe I can get L established enough to take over the house..and I can disappear.. go walkabout... Probably not..

If retirement and SSI survives, with my current input... I may be able to support some kind of lifestyle..

I realize I may have to downsize.  And rely more on L's income to supplement...but..im still proud, and hope to be able to find the right mix of income and expenses.

Lots to think about in the next 9 years..

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So..being said.. I broke 6 figures again..second time in my life..5 years apart.. but.. its a restart.. as long as the place dont go under.. I will go on.

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The past few months... I have had some bonus cash.. we got a refund of the AI loan.. I figured I would calculate the precentages that L and I paid and split it.  L paid more so they got the same precentage. Literally all L paid they got back.

I put my part in savings..

...also...my accident paid out for thw car damage..so far I have bought $450 of parts out of the $3500 they paid.. I may need to ask for more.. to pay for a pasaenger seat and a fender.. 

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So basically I have some extra cash in my checking account.

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So as I look forward..I need to keep paying off the extra stuff and watch what I spend..and plan for tomorrow.

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I still have radio work..and it trickles in and adds up..

I cant live on it..but it can supplement what I need.

I am up $2k since my July trip..

Last year was a light year..lots of requests, but not alot of takers.

But it is all word of mouth and no advertizement..

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It all keeps me busy..and not dwelling on my personal life.  

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Oh well...

R