called in to work

So, adding to my weekend.. Brian is out sick so I was asked to cover. 

Never a problem..  

So.. gonna work 5days this week. 

All good for more OT.

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I did get to walk today with M. We did the south side for a change.. it was cold, but went well. ..

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I realized in my last post..im kinda in a weird place.  Not sure whats the cause.. 

I got a text from a friend, and tried to explain it when they asked how I am..

" Im doing ok. Been a weird couple weeks..I think the energy around me has been testing my patience. Nothing serious just a bit weird."

Its the best explanation I can come up with. ..

Im getting to that place where I am wondering what to do next.. 

Next is 9 years away..but I think I need to start thinking about that.

I should have started a long time ago...

I was planning on having someone with me to figure the future out with.. someone to give me a reason not to wing it.. L is one thing, but eventually they will fend more for themselves..

They already are less and less relying on me. Which is how it should be.

..but that leaves me more on my own.

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I realize some thing..is off..not sure what..I dont know if I need to define it before I can fix it..or If I accept it, and can move on back to normal.. hopefully its that simple.

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This..what ever it is..effects my deductive skills.. lessens my confidence and holds me back.

I dont like it..

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I will keep moving forward and see what I can do.

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R