Eleven

Snowy day.  Cold but not frigid.. 

Did my early morning stuff.. then worked on modding a radio. I need a housing for the display.. and an allen wrench for the channel knob..

I need to ask if he wants it, and if he wants it detachable.. then I will need a jack and plug... And I need to figure out if I can fix the amp with the relays I have.

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L and J asked if we could leave the Saturday P-town drives for the Summer.. I agreed.. I was doing it for L.. but it became a ritual.. not any more.  Maybe we will go back to Sonic more...once it warms up..

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Im running out of weekly rituals. Our schedules have changed .. and places to go.

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But the new year is changing stuff. 

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Subtle little changes here and there..and now its different..

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So, I calculated the first paycheck of the year.. still being overpaid! The holiday pay and the coverage days lowered it, but still more.. 

Lets see if the new boss figures it out.

100k last year and add 6k of overpay. 

And I am under paid compared to the rest of the area??

I just need to keep on for another 9 years...

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But.. another 10 years alone..not sure..that will be tough....well it is what ive been doing most of my life..really if you examine it..all of my life . 

I have been misled and duped..many times.  Never had mutual love..

Yet here I am.. surviving..as a sole entity..with no idea..I never had one.. as to why..

Nothing new, not even a clue.. no prospects..not meeting anyone. No old friends coming into view..

No friends to suggest anyone..

Just stuck..Ive given up even looking..

Too old. Too useless..

Just me.

Always just me.

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R