angry

Got your attention.

I ended the day yesterday and started this day.. in a bad mood..I was easily opinionated..and vehemently so...

I had been assualted via work email by the person responsible for network security and most of the difficulties the corporation inflicts on our attempts to do our jobs .. the mental frustrations too it toll on me yesterday and last night.. 

I decided I would flip it back to the minion responsible..and make the statement that his issue was his, and not mine..my equipment is necessary and if his job was to keep the connections secure..he needed to do that and keep my required equipment functioning.. 

Dont touch my equipment and it needs to be working once he is done doing what he needs to do to keep us safe......and his paycheck coming in.

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I explained this to my supervisor and our IT guy.. and calmed down.

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I also looked at an alternative connection scheme..that will make this whole situation go away..for my and my operations benefit..not his.

.. this circuit has been working fine for 20+ years.. it will continue till they tell me to shut it down..

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So..my girl will be 29 on friday.

Im old..and Iam happy she still thinks of me as a good Dad.

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We get along great and she has been a good daughter. 

I love her very much.

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There ..it is in print..never question it.

I have done every thing I could to keep her safe and teach her what she needs.. 

She is her own person, responsible and loving, caring and a over all good human ...

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Me.. well.. im just me.. have been for so long..and not much has changed..

A few bright spots..and some happiness..but primarily..just me.

I have only L as my achievement..

..I should be happy with that.  But wish I had some personal happiness to add to this chapter..

I am going though the motions ..the day to day ..so I can justify my existance.. so far I think it works... 

No glowing satisfaction..but no disappointment..

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Yay me..

Alone me.

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R