Money..

Yeah, I need to bitch about money.
It was great for a while, but i am back to, paycheck to paycheck. I was doing good when I had OT.. And extra cash in the bank, I was paying down my bills, i was.over paying where I could.. I paid cash to buy the parts to fix L's car..
I paid cash to convert the utilities. But, now the cushion is gone.. And as always..end of the year..

I have not cared about the extras, but now that I want to spend some money, I have to budget for it.. Do a little creative juggling.. So I dont fall behind.

It is time to cut useless expenditures.. Maybe slow down some of the overpayments.. Do the refi consolidation thing.. Cut back on the going out to eat. Drop the cable TV..
There is things i can do.

I have future plans..
2020 is another road rally in July.. I also may want to visit again, if it goes well this time..
I will use my paid time off in 2020..

Ok.. I have been wondering if I should explain my mermaid obsession..
It is real, I am the one that was caught by the mermaid.
They were legends about the "sirens" that lured the sailors...
The word Siren translates to mermaid..
This beauty's heart sang to me, her soul reached out and touched mine.
I resisted..I thought that it was just a passing through.. I tried to not get attached.. But it was unavoidable.. The universe, the great spirit and our past lives ..
All conspired to make this something we cant ignore..
Wisely.. We are not fighting it..we are embracing it..

Too many things have happened to make this a thing.
It was what i needed.. What I figured was gone..not Going to be for me.. And when I resolved my situation to what it was going to be.. Something smiled on me.. And allowed me to be happy again..

Thank you.

Now, lets move forward..
Lets be happy..

We can..

R