This is the month

November..
This is the month ...
I usually fall behind in my monetary obligations..
I usually cannot work enough..
I usually work too much..
I get another year older..
I plan to use what ever time off i have left...
I miss family and close friends..

But.. This year is a little different..
A lot about my life has changed, some good some not so..nothing bad.. Just not as good as it was or should be.

I am happy for how this part of my life has changed..
Not in every aspect..but for the most part.. I have learned to be happy.. I am employed, i have a place to live, i have a functional vehicle, my kid still respects me. I know i am loved.
I am not rich..i have debt. I pay my bills.
I go to work every day.
I dont know what or where i will be in 10 years.. I may have an idea for the next 5 years.. Maybe seriously reduce that debt thing.. If at all possible.. Maybe sell everything i have and start over somewhere new.
Maybe not..maybe settle in and just enjoy.

Unfortunately, I never expect to retire, I do not have a pension, and my retirement funds are sparse..

I will work..as long as I am able.

This month.. I have not cut my hair.. Odd, but I am letting it grow out.. It is past that long enough to be curly phase..
It is difficult to manage after keeping it short for many many years.. I am still looking in the mirror every morning..and asking..should I cut it...can I go another day.

This is usually no shave November.. I am just not cutting my hair.

Ok..

My love..
Once apon a time..you meet someone.
You are both young..
You both have family's that frown on dating.. So you dont, you never get past the infatuation stage..
I looked for any reason to be around you.
I would lose track of you..a couple years in..
Never really having spent any time alone with you.

I saw you a couple times in my 20s..we briefly reminisced about our childhood crush.. Yet never reconnected.
My life changed, your life changed..
Then social media became the thing.. I searched..and found.. But no response for a few years.. Miles apart..
Then our lived changed again.. I was now even further away..and no real chance for us to meet again. My situation
Life changed again..and i knew i just missed you..

But, i didnt.. There you were..there i was..
We talked..explained our lives..
I was happy to be able to spend the time.. But figured it was probably the last time i would ever see you..
Then.. You came back.. Agan I thought it was going to be temporary..and was happy to be able to spend time..
Yet, somewhere someone wanted us to spend enough time with each other to see it was meant to be.. We were meant to reconnect..
I am very glad we did.

We will see what else will change my 5 year plan..

We will see..

R