November 2019

After the past 2 months, to finally be here.
This is the anniversary month of me moving into my home.
One year. No fanfare, no party, really only i noticed.
I still have a bottle of champagne and glasses that my realtor gave me as a house warming gift...

This is also the month of my Birth.. I am not expecting anything other than the ordinary.. As of course always.

I need to start planning to use some of my earned paid time off...before i lose it all.

Typically the last 2 months of the year are the tightest monetarily.. This year is no exception, but i will travel and enjoy myself away from all this...bliss.. I call my life..

I thank my Sirena for my sanity and giving this old guy hope for a different future life.

Truth..if you stop searching..it finds you..
I had given up.. Resigned to what it was..
Yet.. Not looking..and found it.

Oh .. It has its difficulties.. But.. Somethings need to run their course..and work themselves out..
Most things need to be pushed..nudged... To put them on track..to keep them on track..

I think, if this was perfect.. It would fade.. It needs the little struggles.. The minor difficulties to grow..to become all it can be..for everyone. These difficulties, beside timing and money.. Are really minor.. Things that can and are being managed.
Yes, it crimps my 5 yr money plan..but..that was because there was no other reason to work..
No reason to take.vacations, or save days..
But now.. Maybe, there is.

Ok.. I know .. I will share this space with you.. Right now..
I don't want to change your view of me, beyond the one you know.. But over the past 10 years.. I have been through a bit more than I can say.. This is the place it is said..
You may come here and see the other side of me.. And acknowledge what you already know..but prove it..
You may find a few insights to .. This person.. Me..
Or you may just reinforce what you already knew.

I know I may slip and mention things you never realized about me.. Just as I have learned a lot about you..many things that corrected my perceptions, of things I was told to believe..I think to steer me away.. But never really worked.

But here we are.. Here and now.. I really think where we should have been years ago.

Centuries even..

I am in a good place.. Not perfect..but good.
Perfect would be a different time zone.. Soon.

I will elaborate more..

R

(Edited for spelling mistakes)