Here I am..summer of 2016
As always.. single. No one to share it with..
Except way back in 1992.. always alone.
Im sure I always had fun when I was young..but later in life ..you work..have a moment or two to enjoy the bit of summer before more work.
So mine will be spent as a dad.. and by myself.
Yes I have made it possible to be in a crowd..for my vacation..but just me and my daughter.. not being home.
It would be nice to share it with someone.
But..me being me..ends up with me.
Boo hoo..
Yeah yeah.. (so says ISTBA)
My friend has it figured out..
I just keep hoping..
I have not given up..but know..here I am.
Not much changing..
I have said before..I am not suave enough to catch the eye of anyone. If I try too hard..I get shot down..and if I 'play it cool' I get ignored.. if I just put me out there. .. I become the 'friend'..
No winning..always gonna be alone..
Reliable..trustworthy... but by myself.
It could be worse..but I cannot handle being by myself.
Which is why letting my daughter not adult..
I could push more..but then.. I would be really alone..
If you havent figured out yet.. I dont do alone well.
And being a shy..introvert..I am screwed.
To put myself out there takes effort..and sometimes I can do it..
Sometimes I come across as all together..and secure... thanks Adam..I might have learned a lil from you.
I just cant do it 24/7.. I m me.. geek.. ( im beginning not to like that word) but I try because..I deserve more.
But.. here I am.. just me.
Never simple.. always a chore..
It's what it is.. I have tried..and know I am not making enough impression.. I cannot appear to be too desperate..and try too hard..
No one wants desperate..
But really we are all desperate. We as humans want companionship. .no one wants to be alone...
Many of us figure out how to be singular.. rarely want it..
Sometimes it happens.
Some of us learn to live that way..
Some forget how not to..
It defines us..and we live it..forgetting how to let someone in..they try..we cant remember how to let them in..
Then there are those..that cant figure out how to make it work for them..time and distance appear to get in the way.. and we all make excuses why it wont work..what we cant do to allow the right person to occupy that empty space.. where we both would be happy...
Excuses are there.. but its like the old movies where the biker goes for the preppy girl..a match made in heaven but not acceptable. ..
Not what was expected..
When people connect..it means something.
Chance isnt it.
People from different backgrounds... getting together..is what it is all about..
It means so much more to overcome localized adversity..to find that 'one' that helps you be 'you'. A real relationship brings out a lot In People..both can see changes.. and it brings out the best In you.
But..me and ISTBA .. keep eachother company..
As always..
R 6/21/16
As always.. single. No one to share it with..
Except way back in 1992.. always alone.
Im sure I always had fun when I was young..but later in life ..you work..have a moment or two to enjoy the bit of summer before more work.
So mine will be spent as a dad.. and by myself.
Yes I have made it possible to be in a crowd..for my vacation..but just me and my daughter.. not being home.
It would be nice to share it with someone.
But..me being me..ends up with me.
Boo hoo..
Yeah yeah.. (so says ISTBA)
My friend has it figured out..
I just keep hoping..
I have not given up..but know..here I am.
Not much changing..
I have said before..I am not suave enough to catch the eye of anyone. If I try too hard..I get shot down..and if I 'play it cool' I get ignored.. if I just put me out there. .. I become the 'friend'..
No winning..always gonna be alone..
Reliable..trustworthy... but by myself.
It could be worse..but I cannot handle being by myself.
Which is why letting my daughter not adult..
I could push more..but then.. I would be really alone..
If you havent figured out yet.. I dont do alone well.
And being a shy..introvert..I am screwed.
To put myself out there takes effort..and sometimes I can do it..
Sometimes I come across as all together..and secure... thanks Adam..I might have learned a lil from you.
I just cant do it 24/7.. I m me.. geek.. ( im beginning not to like that word) but I try because..I deserve more.
But.. here I am.. just me.
Never simple.. always a chore..
It's what it is.. I have tried..and know I am not making enough impression.. I cannot appear to be too desperate..and try too hard..
No one wants desperate..
But really we are all desperate. We as humans want companionship. .no one wants to be alone...
Many of us figure out how to be singular.. rarely want it..
Sometimes it happens.
Some of us learn to live that way..
Some forget how not to..
It defines us..and we live it..forgetting how to let someone in..they try..we cant remember how to let them in..
Then there are those..that cant figure out how to make it work for them..time and distance appear to get in the way.. and we all make excuses why it wont work..what we cant do to allow the right person to occupy that empty space.. where we both would be happy...
Excuses are there.. but its like the old movies where the biker goes for the preppy girl..a match made in heaven but not acceptable. ..
Not what was expected..
When people connect..it means something.
Chance isnt it.
People from different backgrounds... getting together..is what it is all about..
It means so much more to overcome localized adversity..to find that 'one' that helps you be 'you'. A real relationship brings out a lot In People..both can see changes.. and it brings out the best In you.
But..me and ISTBA .. keep eachother company..
As always..
R 6/21/16
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