Its nearly mid June.
I have a few things to do before vacation.
If the speed bumps of work life will stop. I might get something done..
I survived a serious virus attack..and recovered or replaced what was needed...mother nature is reminding me we are at her mercy.. technical failure of ancient equipment is there...
Personal family issues and personal problems as usual.
Lonelyness..and insecurity..where is that next $ coming from or going to..
But.all in all..my attitude is good..expecting time away.. vacation.. and its stress.. decisions have been made..and money spent or allocated..
Something to look forward to..
Still by my self..still just Dad.
No regrets..just second guesses..
I need to focus on the things I can..knock down the items keeping me from being estatic.. one or two at a time..
I try not to be too complicated or difficult.. but either choose the difficult or the complicated... why??.
For a while..it seemed that was all there was..
But ..realization..we all are just that..complicated.
If you cannot handle that.. you should have stayed married to the lezbian..no..complications..there... HA!
One thing about that.. you knew not to try.. it just wasnt.. and it was what it was.
Now 20 yrs later..here you are single and a mess.. you sucked at relationships then..and after 20.. you know nothing still..
Too slow..too fast..
Not able to pace yourself or anyone else
Your timing sucks..and no one 'gets' you.
Your old..and dont feel it till some young thing reminds you..
You old fart..
Ouch!
My phone is dying..and need to go to sleep.
Brain dump...
Just me.
R6/13/16
I have a few things to do before vacation.
If the speed bumps of work life will stop. I might get something done..
I survived a serious virus attack..and recovered or replaced what was needed...mother nature is reminding me we are at her mercy.. technical failure of ancient equipment is there...
Personal family issues and personal problems as usual.
Lonelyness..and insecurity..where is that next $ coming from or going to..
But.all in all..my attitude is good..expecting time away.. vacation.. and its stress.. decisions have been made..and money spent or allocated..
Something to look forward to..
Still by my self..still just Dad.
No regrets..just second guesses..
I need to focus on the things I can..knock down the items keeping me from being estatic.. one or two at a time..
I try not to be too complicated or difficult.. but either choose the difficult or the complicated... why??.
For a while..it seemed that was all there was..
But ..realization..we all are just that..complicated.
If you cannot handle that.. you should have stayed married to the lezbian..no..complications..there... HA!
One thing about that.. you knew not to try.. it just wasnt.. and it was what it was.
Now 20 yrs later..here you are single and a mess.. you sucked at relationships then..and after 20.. you know nothing still..
Too slow..too fast..
Not able to pace yourself or anyone else
Your timing sucks..and no one 'gets' you.
Your old..and dont feel it till some young thing reminds you..
You old fart..
Ouch!
My phone is dying..and need to go to sleep.
Brain dump...
Just me.
R6/13/16
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