Now

I have noticed, that my present state of mind has made the last couple posts .. different than the norm on my rants..

Lately I have been in a happy state..and my day to day issues are taken away with a presense that makes it all worth doing.
I can do the mundane and the stressful and look forward to a nice conversation that makes it all go away. Even if it is just knowing they are there..knowing they appreciate the contact... we know we are not alone in this world.
A quiet conversation sometimes even without words, makes me happy..calms me..washes away all the stress and demands of my life.

I realize I have been fed on this contact..and nourished on this conversation...and I know it takes on a life of its own..and I get caught up in it..

And the restraint.. the well planned restraint .. slips.. and I let show how much this means to me..
The last thing I want is to frighten you away... come on too strong...
Take too much for granted..

This past few days..I have been so happy... and calm.. i have dropped my guard.. my.. me persona.. and allowed me to be naked me... what I am.. no facade.. not too hard..not too detached..

I am almost sure this is confusing and complicated..but it is what Is In my head.. as with most of my blog posts..

I will have to reread this and try to figure out what I was trying to say..or express..

But, I cannot deny..it is what is in my head..

R
1/26/16

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