Hello again

Been a few weeks..
Sorry.. life has been busy.

I am here in the monetary desert..
Trying to get back on track.
Not having a real goal or direction..I am floundering..
Stuttering through each week .. doing the paycheck to paycheck thing.. I was above... and a few weeks ahead.. but now.. since October.. been struggling .. not too far behind ..but behind.
Not a place I like .. I make more than enough..but ive been just keeping my head head above water. . For a few months..and I am starting to feel the pressure..
I am hoping taxes will 'rescue' me.. but I really need to fix this...
I have plans to do things..and having time and money are a requirement to get there.
I deserve this..after all tis time..can I be happy and enjoy life...???

Every thing I have worked for is supposed to pay off..if not (never) monetarily..maybe..possibly. .. personally... emotionaly.. privately...
I will take any of those..
I deserve all of those...

No need to be greedy..

You would think that after all I do..all ive put up with..
Disapointments.. revelations.. karma..and all that..

I deserve something. . For me.. something to bring back that perma-smile..

As it is.. I am extremely dependant on my daily contact. To remind me that I matter..and I can create a smile...no.. share a smile...generate a smile..that alone is keeping me going.

Thank you!! "M"

I have mastered the skill of keeping on .. moving forward..getting from This day to the next... till they all run together. . A blur.. of days ..months.. till the next year is here.

This is not a skill I want ..

Can we slow down a little.. I am not trying to rush it..I would like to enjoy some of this life...
Make it count..make it enjoyable..

I am beyond the adolescent... live now..screw everything. .attitude. .
I want to glow.. to radiate happiness. ..
Let others realize there is so much more..

And I want to make it happen for me to...
Be able to enjoy..everything..

Try

R
1/11/16