feeling busy..

Wow, April and May have been busy.

I feel like I cannot catch up.

Work has been crazy busy, but we are getting stuff done..just seems to be a whole lot more to do.

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Ive had an eye infection for the past month.  It gets better then goes bad again.. today the eyelid is infected.

I will take out my contacts tonight and see if I can get my eyes some rest.. 

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More..

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I went out for dinner thursday..as usual.. had a text conversation about my status..and current mindset..i was several drinks in.. and was not holding back.. it is how I feel and why.

Im not sure if it is anything I can change..it just is.. I have given up on finding a forever mate..and not really looking for anything else..

I hate being alone..but I like myself enough to keep on..I still have things to do and a way to get them done.

I have work and home and family...

And cars and radios.. so I can keep busy and occupied.

..my friends are radio people and clients, bartenders and people I know from my past and work. Thats about it..

My brothers are not communicative, much. But I am not closed to any conversations.

No one has ever visited my home.

Except, A,J,N,J, and my realtor.

A has stayed the night.. no one else.

I have lived in this house since 2018..

I have never been a destination.. and still not.

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R