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Im hitting that wall . Not finding enough to blog. I have stuff..but not good enough to share. No mind emptying thoughts.. nothing of note to purge or no soul bearing information.

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I have even found it hard to recap last year..nothing explainable.. I can think about it. 

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Last year started with mostly work.

I had gone on a trip the December before.. and it ended poorly.  I realized that was at the end.. still friends but nothing discussed or established. So I went into close to home work, work.. L had an accident on black ice coming home from work, I spent time doing the repairs . Got some help from a friends dad with paint. It all went back together.  I tried to buy a used car, turned out it needed a transmission..so returned it. 

Then later found a bad control arm joint, so my friends dad let me use the lift and we replaced that. So got that all good.. 

A friend had a car that he sold me, it had an issue he could not figure out.. but had a great motor, so I figured I could maybe reprogram it.. after researching I found that it would need new, very expensive module replacement and reprogramming.. so I found a different car that needed an engine and swapped out the good one into the newer one.. then fixed all the other little issues.. its nearly 95% good.. still needs front brake pads and maybe a sensor. But it drives great and looks pretty good.

So I have a spare car.. I figure I could sell it for $5k to $7k with no trouble. If I wanted to.

It would be parts wise a profit.. not paying for my labor.. but I did learn a lot. ...

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I had rekindled a friendship in December of 21.. and we talked about road trips and travel.  Then I had the opportunity to visit.. and did.. we clicked . I mentioned several times that I would be interested in being her boyfriend.. 

She eventually gave in.. 

I tried not to be a pest or a burden, and the beginning was good, then we both got tied up with work schedules. It started falling apart.  In The beginning of December..

She actually suggested that being  friends may be better for us..

We texted nearly every day. But I stopped asking to come up.

Then she asked if I could do her a favor.. It was a Monday of a long weekend.. she was leaving for a family visit, and was not going to be able to take her dad and asked if I could come get him and take him home. It was 4:00p on Monday.. I said give me 30 min and I will leave to come up. It was a 4 hour drive and I needed to get dinner for the house before I left. I realized she would not have asked me if there was another option. I could not say no.. I could do it, and no reason not to.

I did the trip . Up and back, her dad was cordial with me. The 4 hour ride back went well. 

Im glad I could, and glad I did.

It made her rethink us ...and me..

So we did re-connect..and actually had a great new years together. We had some good times with friends and the next day..some hay and wood stacking then some cuddle time before I had to go back home.. really nice.  

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It has been my on-call weeks

So not going up.. and the weather has been bad . 

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Im off Monday. No plans. So far.

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I know not much for a end of year recap.. but all I have. 

I hope this year will be all that it can be. 

I have plans to make a few changes to make my future survivable..

Comfortable.. and happy. 

R